Please. Excuse. The. Rant. (P.E.T.R.)

Pissed. Pissed ALL THE WAY OFF! i'm just on another complete level. Like i have had ENOUGH! It seems like everyone and everything is just pissing me off, nor do i know why. I just really wished that for once things would go my way. Today also just so happens to be the day of homecoming. *oh joy*  and in all honesty i'm not excited. I actually dont even really want to go anymore. But because i've already bought a dress, shoes, a ticket etc. i guess i will. even though i really dont want to. I'd rather go somewhere and be alone. or be with someone who can sympathize with me. Especially since i been giving out a shit tone of sympathy lately. Then to people who dont deserve it at that. I am too nice of a person. *and thats not something you'll ever hear anyone say* I am a mean person, I'm blunt, and I dont care. So now here i am sitting at the computer ranting, going off... I just seriously hope that tonight is a lot better than today has been. The dance isn't until 7:30 and I'm going to go take pictures at 7 but i also need to go to old town and take some pictures before i head over to my friends house to take pictures with them. SOOOO yeah.

It's another Monday Morning...

Oh how we LOVE monday mornings... I swear monday's are the HARDEST days of the week. There's no comparison. I'm sure many of you have a long week ahead of you. I know I do with homecoming being this week and what not. There's alot of performances, *i have 3 this week* alot of decorating, and of coarse the DANCE! I'm somewhat excited/sad. I'm excited to go but sad it's my last. But either way i'm going to enjoy it... dateless. again.... Not even going there. But it's not important to have a date to homecoming. Because 9 out of 10 you wont leave with the same person. But who cares. Everybody gone dance on Everybody and we gone have a good time. the end.

The OFFICIAL TATTOO!

So incase you didn't know my birthday is September 28th... Which is really soon! I am super excited! And i can NOT wait to go and get my first tattoo. I"m not sure where im going to go to get it done at yet but i definantly know what i want. and that's a humming bird. I dont want color my first go around because im not sure i'll be able to handle it. That's alot for a beginner. so i'll just stick to the basic tat. And here it is...
 

This Boys and Girls is it! I love it because i can always go back and add color and detail to it! I dont feel like i'm going to regret this at all. IT has so much symbolism and meaning... such as

• The hummingbird symbolizes many different concepts. Because of its speed, the hummingbird is known as a messenger and stopper of time. It is also a symbol of love, joy, and beauty. The hummingbird is also able to fly backwards, teaching us that we can look back on our past. But, this bird also teaches that we must not dwell on our past; we need to move forward. When the hummingbird hovers over flowers while drinking nectar, we learn that we should savour each moment, and appreciate the things we love
• Hummingbird is the creature that opens the heart. When the hurt that caused us to close our hearts gets a chance to heal, our hearts are free to open again.
• Hummingbirds teach us fierce independence. They teach us to fight in a way where no one gets hurt. They teach us courage. Having the courage to refrain from creating new trauma by communicating non-violently toward ourselves and others is an important part of healing.
• Because of it's speed the humming bird is know as the messenger and stopper of time.
• It is a symbol of love joy and beauty.