To whom it may concern...

To Whom it may concern,
               You dont know me. You dont know anything about me. You just know what you see on the surface, and what you've heard. You dont know me. I'm not who you think I am. I dont meet your assumptions. I exceed them. You think that because I dont talk much in a class, or try to be social with everyone that im shy, stuck up, or even a loner. That's not me. That's what you assumed. You never thought to get to know me. You never thought to even talk to me. You profiled me the moment you saw me. Never giving it a second thought. But you are so wrong.
              I am the loudest, outspoken person you will ever meet. I have opinions and advice for everything. I like to have fun, and get a little crazy... But you'd never know that. You'd never know that i have a story. That i too have my share of up's and down's. You'd never know because you never took the time to ask or even get to know me. You assumed and you judged.
            You assume that i have a disability because i cant look at you directly when i'm talking to you. Maybe i look away out of fear. Maybe There's a deeper meaning behind it. But you'd never know that because you assume.
Assumptions...

Ink My Whole Body

I'm literally itchin for ink. It's uncontainable how bady i am ready for this ink! SO more into this tattoo research... i have more photo's of interesting tattoo's. Keyword interesting.

It's that time...

OK. So as you all know it's that dreaded time of the year... when all the little boys and girls return back to school! For some it's just another year to them but to the class of 2012 this is THAT year. The last one. This is it! It's going to be a long year, but as I say that watch the year quickly pass me by. There are so many exciting events coming up as well, such as my birthday, homecoming *which has been moved up this year* getting my first tattoo, Prom, graduation... etc... It's just so much that about to happen and i couldn't be more excited. So class of 2012 are you ready?
                                             

I can not imagine....

Recently my family has experienced two losses in a matter of a few days. One was lost to his battle with cancer the other was taken by senseless violence being murdered in a shoot out. Both losses leave a tremendous hole in hearts. I personally can not imagine how it must feel to loose my son because of someone roars ignorance. A good guy at the wrong place, wrong time, with the wrong people. As the story is being told he was just sitting in the car with his boys when another car opened fire & he was shot in the stomach & died before he arrived at a hospital. How could anyone just randomly shoot someone who had done nothing to them? That was innocent! Now because of someone roses stupidity a family is grieving the loss of their son. If you can not tell I am extremely angered by this. Senseless death. I just hope Mr. Tickers sanity they find the idiots who did this & that they are punished for it.
Then my uncle boobi (boob-e) passed away late Sunday night. He had been battling cancer for about two years now. He's my uncle through marriage. More like a great uncle, he's my grandmother's brother in law, my moms uncle. I wasn't as close to him as I was with all of my other uncle's. Uncle boobi wasn't the nicest man, but it's still sad to see him go. Honestly I'm more sad for my aunt & grandma than I am for him. That may come off as rude, mean, & cruel but I'm being honest. My grandma & aunt were there when he passed. They sat there with him & held his hand as he passed. I honestly don't think I could deal with myself. I'd be traumatized to sit there & hold the man that I loved hand as he died.I couldn't bear to sit there with him, to even see him in that state because it would break my heart. Now it's just her, her children, & her grandchildren. Thankfully she has plenty of family. I'm sure that this funeral is going to be like a slap to the face. Reality check. This is the last time you'll ever see this man. This is it. The end. I can not imagine how she must feel... And I'm sure that I never want to experience what she went through. No one should ever have to go through that. Ever. Now as I deal with my family and these tragedies I try to stay in high spirits & surround myself with my friends so as to not sink into a depression. But to all of my supportive friends I appreciate all of you because that motivates me to be stronger for my own family.
Thanks.
Let's also keep in mind that life is so short & fragile that it can be easily be taken away from us so easily. So live your life to the fullest, with no regrets. Take chances, and do what you've Been putting off because the bigger mistake is the chance you don't take.

Plan Ahead!

It's never too early to start thinking about the biggest social event coming up... NO not the first day of school but homecoming in the fall! Dont wait to the last minuete and try to scramble together a dress! many dress shops, and websites are having summer sales! They have short prom/cocktail dresses on sale! *they're trying to get rid of the dresses before they're loaded up with new the next year's prom dresses.* So go ahead and take a look! i've gathered together some photos of styles that i personally think are super cute. I tried to give you all a variety but... i cant help what i like!(not that i like all of them because some of them are.... *no comment) BTW: Sequins, and white are super IN! so go for it!

That moment when your on plan E...

How many times have you played a scenario out in your mind? You played out exactly what was supposed to happen and what everyone was supposed to say. Then when the moment came, nobody followed their script and your worse night mare came true. I've been there. I've been there multiple times. I can not even begin to tell you how many times i have over thought a situation, and been mad because it didnt go the way i planned... happens all the time. Then as soon as it's over i begin to think of how it should've gone. Anyways, how many times have our scenario's not worked out and we keep rethinking ways for it to go and it still never works... Obviously planning out a situation just isn't a good use of time. Perhaps we should just wing it? See what happens... You never know. It may just come out better than your own "script".

Yeah... That's you

Take a look in the mirror... Yeah that's you.

You thought he loved you. Maybe not even love, you thought he liked you. You thought there was something there. SOMETHING! ANYTHING! You were hoping for there to be some sort of connection between the two of you. You wished, hoped, and prayed that maybe because you were thinking about him so much that he thought about you the same way. That'd be a big NEGATIVE! Maybe you saw him sweet talking some other girl on facebook, or Twitter, and you realized that he didn't feel the same about you. You also realized that he was one that had a BROAD intrest in... broads. Yeah not much of a one woman man now is he? Then in the back of your head you kept thinking to yourself "were such good friends that he has to realize how much i care about him." Yeah he realized it but he doesn't care though, and he NEVER will. "He see's me as a friend." That's all he'll ever see you as. As the "homegirl" the "bestfriend" the one he'll come to for advice about OTHER females. Yeah thats you.
Maybe even you've been crushing on him for years and you have these undying feelings that wont go away. REALITY CHECK: You've been liking him for *keyword* YEARS! and nothing has come from it but more heart ache. Move on. Deal with the heart break. Keep loving him but love somebody else too. Because i can garuntee that all that love you feel for him and all the tears you shed for him he wont shed one for you. And you may blame that on the fact that he doesn't know how you feel. We'll tell him! what are you waiting for?
And maybe your the one that had the opportunity to be with him. When he wanted you you DID NOT want him, and all your friends told you you were making a mistake. You told yourself if it was a mistake oh well. Then you brushed it off. People told you He was the one. He was a good guy, he'd never hurt you all that good stuff things that most girls look for in a guy. But you still said no because you were thinking more about your reputation and what people would say. Who would tease you and because you didnt want to give anyone the satisfaction of being right. Now here you are thinking to yourself that that WAS a mistake. And now your trying to figure out how you can somehow get him back and repay him for what you did. You never thought that it might've embarrased him by you turning him down. That he had a reputation and friends and people would talk about him too. YOU WERE SELFISH! Sounds harsh but that's what you were. Now your trying to be friends and flirt again but he's not interested now. He's moved on. And he's changed. He's become a different person. Like Mike Jones said "back then they didn't want me, Now im hot they all on me" If your not down when he was nobody you dont deserve him when he's somebody. You are the trifling one. If your lucky to get a second chance then your the Lucky trifling one.

NOW HONESTLY... TAKE A LOOK IN THE MIRROR... WHO ARE YOU?