For better or worse?

You're crazy. You know you're crazy. You know you have issues, your hard to get along with and for the life of you, you cant seem to figure out why in the HELL anyone would want to be with you, let alone even love you. The very thought that someone out there in the world could possibly even bear to be around you let alone, actually want to is an impossible thought... or in my opinion it's impossible. It's... proposterous!!!! I know one day i'll be a believer but until that day... i'll just keep living my life in disbelief.
You know it's so hard with today's world. With people or rather guys after one thing... It's unbelivably hard to find someone else that will not only respect you, but like you for who you are, treat you right, and not expect anything from you. Girls that do give it up, make it hard for those of us who dont. It seems like virgins are hard to come by these days. I guess were the last of a dying breed... And in my opinion that just makes us all the more valuable. I think we have more respect because of that. and i'm getting off topic but im just saying have some self respect because once you give it up, you loose that value that you once had and then you become ordinary, and un-special.
Now back to my point. It's hard to find somebody. Once you do actually find someone who honestly believes it? All of your friends are even in disbelief. "Are you seriously dating ___?" and all you can do is awkwardly say "yeah?" It's like i know i've been single and i had started giving up hope, but damn, even my friends gave up too? Then it makes you rethink yourself like I am i really that bad? And in the end you go back and forth but it doesn't matter because now you've found someone that can actually tollerate you so... it's an improvement.
Now here's the dilemna. Your in a relationship. it's your first one, and you have no clue what your doing, or what to do. No clue how to actually be in a relationship. And tragically there's no book, format, script, instruction manual, or how to for dummies on how to be in a relationship. You are completely on your own, and you just have to figure it out. And figuring it out isn't easy... Things get hard, and complicated, or even your way or the way you think they should go... and just because it's getting hard you cant give up. It's like: oh he didnt text me first. I think im gonna break up with him. NO! you cant just throw in the towel that easily over petty shit. If anything break up over something major not minor and stupid at that. If your gonna be in a relationship you have to be in it for the long run. Ready to work out any problems you have. And actually work out your problems, such as if he does something that makes you mad, TELL HIM! not your girls. Because complaining to them isn't gonna fix the problem and only proves that there's a communication problem between the two of you. For better or worse? For the good times, and the bad. You gotta stick it out and make it work!