Passing me by

*sigh* How did I let life pass me by? It's sad to be 19 and feel like you've never done anything with your life. There's no moments that were so amazing that are just worth remembering. It's sad, the most extravagant thing you've ever done with your life was take a school trip to Paris and Spain. And it dawned upon me when you see other people having these amazing moments in their life that you know they'll never forget. Like having these extravagant ways of being asked to prom, or going to college and having the time of your life. How and why is it that i'm missing out on everything? I feel like everything just passed me by. Those high school relationships that you think will last forever, yeah none of that. Going to parties, None of that. Going to clubs? None of that. Life is just passing me by, and i'm letting it. I feel like i have no stories to tell my children if I was to ever even have children. WHY???? Sometimes I feel like everything passed me by because I wasn't included. Left out, disregarded, uninvited. Yeah, something like that... and that again takes me back to that point in my life when things were... hard. And again here I am getting to personal with my blog. I just can't deal. Whatever. I'm jealous. I envy these people having these amazing moments. I hate you. Anyways, moving on. Let me keep it moving because i'm salty.