Pre-Prom

Prom season has rolled around again!!! Who can really believe it? Time to get a idea of what kind of dress you want and ofcoarse im here to help!!!!

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The "it's not you, it's me" Line

I'm sure we've all heard it before... the classic break up line "It's not you, It's me." But what does it's not you  it's me really mean? What's the real meaning behind that?
It's saying that the reason they're breaking up with you isn't because of anything you've done but because they have issues and feel that they can'tbe in a relationship with you anymore because of something that they've done. So don't take the break up personally. But honestly how many times has this line been said just to spare the feelings of the one your breaking up with? Too many times... It's the idea that maybe the break up will be easier if you blame it on yourself when in reality your breaking up with the other person because of whatever issues there are or were. And to the other person it's more of a selfish, rude and inconsiderate action. How can someone have the audacity to place the blame on themself and lie to your face rather than just telling you whatever the issue is and working out the problem. This line only proves how there's a lack of communication. Considering if the problem really was them, then there truthfully is a lack of communication because your significant other neglected to tell you about some of the problems they're going through, and rather than the two of ya'll working out the issues and problems they let it go unresolved and now because of that there's a potential break up.
"It's not you, It's me" well... If it's you, you might wanna be prepared with a good and legit reason as of to whats WRONG with you and why is it that whatever's wrong with you makes you feel the need to break it off. I've am a product of a unhappy relationship with two people that have had issues since the jump. No communication, and constant argueing and fighting. One thing i've learned is that you have to work it out and you have to talk about it, and how to fix it. I've also learned that if your not happy then you probably should'nt be in the relationship anyway. Because there's no point in being in a relationship when your not happy, because your misery will only make your significant other miserable to. So don't drag the both of you down. If' it's not meant to be let it go. Which is not saying give up. At least try to make it work before you throw in the towel. Relationships are meant to be endured and get stronger in time. Not something for the weak and mild hearted.
On another note: Relationships shouldn't be entered from the get go if your not absolutely certain that you can handle it. If you can't handle it, then dont do it. Don't enter a relationship just because your lonely, or you feel sorry, or any other crazy reason other than you have a strong connection, thats undeniable, and there's no one else you could or would rather be with. Do it for the right reasons...
With all that being said, i just abolished the whole "It's not you, It's me" Line. It's extinct and should be laid to rest in peace.
R.I.P "It's not you, It's me"

Show Love some R-E-S-P-E-C-T !

Love-

love

   /lʌv/ Show Spelled [luhv] Show IPA noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.

noun

1.

a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.

a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3.

sexual passion or desire.

4.

a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

 As clearly defined above, Love's true meaning is honestly undermined. It's meaning So much more than those few words that describe it... The word Love should only be used in the sincerest terms of endearment. It should be used seriously rather than thrown around the way that it is. Love gets no respect in terms of usage. And nobody ever seems to care neither. You should think before the word "love" even escapes your mouth. Because clearly you could tell someone you love them, but in actuality you just love the idea of them, or their actions. Leading them to believe that you sincerely love them, and then when you mess up, it defeats their belief in love and leads them on to loose faith in it's existance. Which is why so many people dont believe in it. I believe that it exist, but it just exists for those who have honestly found it. I am not one of those people... Although i may have thought i was, i realized i was not. And it's so easy to believe that your in love, and you've found love, and your significant other loves you. In fact it's too easy to fall into that state of oblivion... Clueless, drunk on infatuation, stuck in the honey moon phase. But soon that wears off then your stuck with the reality of the situation... Which isn't what you thought it was. clearly. False love gets us everytime. And thats simply because were all so desperate to feel love, to have it and know that it exist. We want love so bad we fall for anything even close to love. And thats how we end up in said situations. sad isnt it?

Love needs more respect. Love needs to be taken for granted and tested, and tried to know that it's the real deal. Love shouldn't be thrown around and slapping me in the face when it's not real. Show love some respect, and in return it'll respect you... So you know it's real.

For better or worse?

You're crazy. You know you're crazy. You know you have issues, your hard to get along with and for the life of you, you cant seem to figure out why in the HELL anyone would want to be with you, let alone even love you. The very thought that someone out there in the world could possibly even bear to be around you let alone, actually want to is an impossible thought... or in my opinion it's impossible. It's... proposterous!!!! I know one day i'll be a believer but until that day... i'll just keep living my life in disbelief.
You know it's so hard with today's world. With people or rather guys after one thing... It's unbelivably hard to find someone else that will not only respect you, but like you for who you are, treat you right, and not expect anything from you. Girls that do give it up, make it hard for those of us who dont. It seems like virgins are hard to come by these days. I guess were the last of a dying breed... And in my opinion that just makes us all the more valuable. I think we have more respect because of that. and i'm getting off topic but im just saying have some self respect because once you give it up, you loose that value that you once had and then you become ordinary, and un-special.
Now back to my point. It's hard to find somebody. Once you do actually find someone who honestly believes it? All of your friends are even in disbelief. "Are you seriously dating ___?" and all you can do is awkwardly say "yeah?" It's like i know i've been single and i had started giving up hope, but damn, even my friends gave up too? Then it makes you rethink yourself like I am i really that bad? And in the end you go back and forth but it doesn't matter because now you've found someone that can actually tollerate you so... it's an improvement.
Now here's the dilemna. Your in a relationship. it's your first one, and you have no clue what your doing, or what to do. No clue how to actually be in a relationship. And tragically there's no book, format, script, instruction manual, or how to for dummies on how to be in a relationship. You are completely on your own, and you just have to figure it out. And figuring it out isn't easy... Things get hard, and complicated, or even your way or the way you think they should go... and just because it's getting hard you cant give up. It's like: oh he didnt text me first. I think im gonna break up with him. NO! you cant just throw in the towel that easily over petty shit. If anything break up over something major not minor and stupid at that. If your gonna be in a relationship you have to be in it for the long run. Ready to work out any problems you have. And actually work out your problems, such as if he does something that makes you mad, TELL HIM! not your girls. Because complaining to them isn't gonna fix the problem and only proves that there's a communication problem between the two of you. For better or worse? For the good times, and the bad. You gotta stick it out and make it work!

That Moment when your 11:11 comes true...

Everyone knows about the 11:11 phenomenon that occurs everyday when everyone makes a wish in hopes that somehow it'll come true. Well I've been wishing on 11:11 for a while now, and my wish never came true... until recently. Although i probably should've been more specific with my wish...

Here I was wishing each night, for a boyfriend, for someone *of the male species to love me* to be there for me etc... well... I got what i wished for. Even though it might not be who I wanted, but it's someone non the less, and that is all i asked for. So once again. My fault.

At our school there seems to be this tradition. Or at least for the band kids there's a tradition that if you have to do something that involves emotions, feelings, such as an emotional confrontation, or release of sexual tension it's done in the instrument closet/room. Sure enough if i didn't fall into that tradition. I was pulled in by a friend of mine, and sure enough he asked me out. Now lets take note that this is all new to me. I wasn't really expecting that at all, and not only was it unexpected It was a first. Yeah, that's the first to actually say to me "will you go out with me?" and mean it in a relationship type way. and not in a like "hey lets kick it way." and i was in complete and utter shock. But then right after the shock i realized that he was waiting on a answer. and i didnt have one... So i told him i would think about it and he was more than understanding about it. He told me to take all the time i needed which i really appreciated. It showed that he was mature about the situation...

Now here i am one week into our relationship going on two. yeah...

See, it wasnt as simple as me just saying yes... there was 5,000 million issues that we had to deal with first. I didnt want to be in a relationship, and we went a entire week just trying to be friends and before the end of the week i knew what i wanted, and that wasn't to be friends. So now here i am going on two weeks... still dealing with issues, but no one said it would be easy or perfect right?

And as bad as i wanted to be cuffed up, and not single i get what i want and im not even sure if this is what i really want. Like i feel like i might be delusional about this whole thing, and maybe im just... desperate? and that's not what i want to be or come off as... But ofcoarse i'm not a quiter, nor am i ready to throw in the towel just yet... But moral of the story is, be careful what you wish for because you just might get it...

A letter to the one, that could've been the "ONE"

Dear one,
You sir are a fool. A idiot, and you have passed up a most incredible opportunity. A opportunity that you only get once in life, and you passed it up. You had the chance to be the "ONE." The one you say? well, yes, the "ONE" You could've been the one that had the world served to him on a silver platter. The one that had a best friend, lover, and soul mate that would've served him the world on that platter. You could've had it all... Everything you ever wanted and more, BUT you passed it up. You brushed it off as though you could find better... And though this may sound as though I am bitter towards your rejection but in all honesty i humor it. I laugh because it is you that has lost. I could have offered you more than  you would have ever assumed.  You thought you knew me, and i thought you knew me too, but i see that all you knew were assumptions. And your assumptions were wrong. You didn't know that I love hard, and that i could love you in the way that i did. You didn't know that I would do anything for you, all you had to do was ask. You didn't know that I'd spoil you. That Every holiday i give gifts, and even when i feel like just because you'd always receive. You didn't know that if I had of brought you home another 20 people were guaranteed to adore you. You didn't know....
They say ignorance is Bliss, you cant miss what you don't know. Well now that you know, i bet you wish you could take it back. We could've been great. We could've been so much more. You could've been here, in my home, apart of my family. We could've went on dates, and did things together. Bowling, movies, dinner... all in one night. You could've been here, and we could've made out on my couch... Sneaked in kisses at school... It could've been amazing...  No day would've been boring. Each day something new, because you never know what to expect with me. And i know I'm a lot to handle. No one had to tell me. I know this. But you on the other hand showed that you could handle it. Showed aggression, and assertiveness. Stand up to me, and never back down from anything i threw your way. You had my back whenever i was in the face or trouble, or needed a helping hand. You showed all the signs of my super man. But then you let me down. You had to choose between me and another... and you chose the other. Because i want you to be happy i support your decision, I just hope you don't regret it. Because i know she can never love you like i can. She can't offer you the things that i can. We're two different girls and you've made your decision. But, i still felt like you should know. Not that i expect you to change your mind, or that i want to convince you to come back, but you could've been the "ONE"
                                                Sincerely,
                                                               The one who wasn't the "ONE"

Where do you go from here? Stuck, like a stick in the mud. Engulfed in issues, drama, and heartbreak. Where do you go? What do you do? No advice for you here. Just  my opinion. But uhh, basically Keep living. Drama is unescapable, and issues are ever present. Heartbreak can be solved but that doesnt mean it wont reoccur.
People feel the need to voice their opinions, negative, and positive. Me personally couldnt care less. Let them talk. Let them say what they want. All you can do is keep it moving and do what makes you happy. Because thats what's important. And if your friends dont support you in what makes you happy then they weren't your real friends from the get go. And loosing them is only to your benefit. There is no reason to keep fake people around you. that's unneccessary nonsense. The less nonsense the better right? RIGHT! so, let em go. The ones that hold you down no matter what are the ones thats down for the ride. Those are the type of people you want around you. Not those who speak down to you, or treat you as lesser. Or those who continuously critisise you because they feel the need to to make them feel better about themselves. Also there are those friends that keep you around to live in their shadow. Who really wants to live anyones shadow? No one. Including me.
Then as for issues, the only thing you can do is deal with it the best you can. Look on the bright side of things. I know many people have rough home lives and it's hard to keep that and you social/school life seperate. When issues continue to follow you you may feel like it too much to bare but this is a time when i suggest you turn to religion. Whatever your religion may be, this would be a time that you should get on your knees and pray and ask that God give you strength to make it through. This is also a spiritual healing, that everyone needs.
And heartbreak... My goodness i could go on, and on and on about this. But as for that last dud that didn't work out dont let that phase you. Be single and happy. Go out with your girls, make new guy friends *not saying flirt with Alotta guys a gain a bad reputation* but make new friends that actually just want to be friends. Enjoy yourself and when a prospect comes along, then congradulations on that! And i personally wish you the best of luck and i hope that everything works out.
Life can be alot but as long as we make it out alive, i'd say were doing pretty good!

Progression...

As you can see here on Monday Mornings Friday Nights i'm talking to a very small audience, but anyways, there have been some changes made, and i hope you like them. Also, THEME Music is still updated weekly so check that out and update your ipod!

The Epitome of disapointment...
Let me begin to describe to disapointment. Disapointment is that point where you have expectations for how you want or expect for someone to conduct themselves but they do as you expect. They let you down. But when this disapointment becomes life altering, and changing then what? When someone you care deeply about, and plays a major role in your life disapoints you, is forgiveness even a option? How can you forgive someone for their wrong doing when their wrong doing has hurt you deeply. Such things as spreading a rumor, or steeling, can those be overlooked? In my opinion the answer is yes. Those things are forgivable. But when it becomes physical how can you forgive that? Physical as in someone hitting you, or you and someone having s** for the first time then they turn around and leave you after getting it. Can you honestly forgive that? I say no. It's abuse in my opinion. How dare anyone put their hands on you and believe that it's ok? Forgiving them for such nonsense only gives them the right to do it again. Which in the end is no one elses fault but your own. And so is giving it up. That is also your own fault. And maybe one day you can forgive yourself, but the other person... never. I'm a strong believer in holding grudges. And if your going to hold one, hold it for a long time.
Forgiveness is given to those who are deserving. Not to those who are pleading. There is a major difference. Forgiveness is given to those who you love, and can overlook for their minor mistep, but not to those who you are infatuated with and believe they deserve a second chance. Knowing the difference between the two can make all the difference in the world between that and a second offense.

Looking for someone to love me

Single... A form of loneliness. A term to define someone who has yet to find someone else to have strong feelings towards them. Single, as in: alone, one, Pathetic, unattractive, Depressed, miserable. So many people claim to enjoy being in this state of being but I strongly disagree. Nobody wants to be alone. Everyone wants someone to care about them, and love them as much as they could love someone. But it's hard to find that special someone. Because should you dare slip up and love the wrong one it won't have a happy ending. Someone always gets their heart broken & more than likely that someone is you.
I've always imagined, as I'm sure many people do, that one day I'd find someone who loved me to no end. Someone that was just amazing, perfect in every way & seemed as though their whole purpose in life was to love me. But ofcoarse that's just my imagination running away... The kind of guy that I imagine doesn't exist. Or atleast I've never met one that even comes close. The only place guys like this exist are in movies, and books... Maybe that's the problem. Movies, books, and television give us this false idea of love. That a perfect guy exist somewhere out there in the world when in actuality it doesn't. Every guy has his flaws. Just as we as females have our flaws to. Nobody's perfect, and that's a fact. But it's the ability to love our flaws, and overlook them and focus on the big picture that helps us find that one person.
So many people build relationships based off of appearance, rather than personality which is so many relationships dont make it. So ask yourself, would you like to be in a unstable relationship with someone thats a complete ass hole, and it's destined to end, or would you like to be in a relationship with some one you can love, and it will last a long time perhaps even life, and you'd be happy except they werent the most attractive person in the planet. Now which would you rather have?
Also. Being single is not a complete bad thing. Besides being lonely... but it's not ALL bad. Perhaps rather than calling it single we should rename it. To if someone ask you "are you single?" you simple say "no im in a finding myself stage." Because thats what it is. Your finding yourself, and learning what makes you happy. And if you dont know how to be happy by yourself how can you expect to be happy by yourself? Because you'll only be dependent on the other person to make you happy, but if the other person cant make you happy then both of you become unhappy. Then there's two unhappy people. Why drag both of you through the mud? So take this time "alone" and figure yourself out. Find out what makes you tick. And perhaps in that time while your finding yourself, someone else comes along. Patience.

Breathe, stretch, shake, let it out!

It's Mid Semester, schools getting to be tiring, The weathers getting cold, and your getting tired. Relief! Lets not forget to add in that social life of your's that out of control. Between practicing for your sport, after school tutorials, Those extra saturday testing, hanging out with your friends, and your family life how do you manage? I honestly have no clue. Which is exactly why i suffer from multiple emotional breakdowns, depression, frustration, and i take this built up anger and take it out on inocent people. Although it's unsaid, that is a serious problem that im sure i am not alone in.

Taking a moment to just breathe would be nice... Breathe and relax and just take a moment to reflect. Each and everyday there needs to be that one moment In the MIDDLE of the day where you take a moment and just breathe. Put your ipod on and listen to a calming song, or maybe take a break and open up a book.

My biggest causer of stress is going to long and not breaking. Also unhealthy eating habits can contribute to stress. When your body is tired, and you have alot to do you stress to push and accomplish those tasks when you dont have a sufficient amount of energy. Trying a healthier diet could also relieve you of some stress. It could even lighten you mood, as well as your body.

Prioritising, organizing, and planning are also good ways to relieve stress. This way you know exactly what needs to be done, by when, Knowing where everything is, and planning your day to include some free time.

This time of the year things are about to really kick into gear. So  you might as well accept it and roll with it.

I personally suggest we all invest in stress balls!



The Swans! *Birthdays between Sept 2- Sept 29*

SO forgive me im kinda caught up in this astrology phase right now... sorry.

02 Sept - 29 Sept

The swan is a complex character. While appearing on the surface as a calm and relaxed individual, underneath they are working hard to keep up with the pace of modern life. If provoked their natural graceful demeanor can give way to a violent temper which puts them in a flap. They are definitely someone to have on your side.

Sadly this is so true. I am a very "complex character." I feel as though i have multiple personalities... And you never know which one you may get. I am a relaxed person. Im wearing Jeggings and a hoodie now, i keep it calm and attempt to go with the flow. But on the inside I have so many issues im dealing with right now. And as for keeping up with modern life... it's not easy being friends that are well off, and your struggling just to make it. Im just saying. It's expensive trying to "fit in." I do have a bad temper... And it only comes out when I've been severely pissed off. So therefore this is correct!

Flower Astrology

So for whatever reason today it randomly crosed my mind that there was some form of flower astrology so i took a minuete to check it out, and it was quite interesting. so here's the chart for the signs:

	Aries: March 21 - april 20 Zodiac Sign: Born under the symbol of the sure-footed ram, the Aries, a fire sign, is confident and fierce. Dynamic and full of contagious energy, those born under this zodiac sign are usually the ones who take the lead – quick to volunteer for adventure and preferring the road less traveled to previously charted territory. Birth Sign Flower: Match the Aries enthusiasm and zeal with flowers the color of passion (romantic or otherwise) – like an anything-but-demure red tulip flower bouquet. Dazzling and full of energy, it’ll appeal to their love of bold gestures and their appreciation for the slightly unexpected.
	taurus: april 21 - may 21 Zodiac Sign: Even though they’re best known for being as headstrong and fierce as a bull – their zodiac sign’s symbol – there’s an indisputable warmhearted, romantic and sensuous side to the Taurus personality as well. And, while this earth sign’s also known for its well-grounded, practical sensibilities, they harbor an equally strong love for beautiful things, pleasure and comfort that enjoys being indulged. Birth Sign Flower: Cater to the Taurus’s appreciation for nature’s exquisite beauty with flowers that appeal to their full range of senses – like a flower bouquet showcasing majestic lilies. Their rich symbolism will appeal to the Taurus’s respect for history, and the lily’s dramatic form and fragrant perfume will indulge their romantic, sensual side.
	gemini: may 22 - june 21 Zodiac Sign: Easily adaptable and versatile – with a lively (sometimes bordering on the mischievous) imagination – Geminis are one of the most creative of all the zodiac signs. With the heavenly twins as their birth sign symbol, and a lightheartedness often associated with air signs, it’s no surprise that Geminis have highly sociable and playful personalities. Their expressive (downright talkative), clever qualities make them fun-loving friends and treasured companions. Birth Sign Flower: Surprise a Gemini with a flower bouquet filled with roses – a flower that symbolizes the essence of their zodiac sign: love and companionship. With the ability to convey a wide range of messages and sentiments depending on their color, roses are a perfect match for this birth sign’s multi-dimensional (twin) sides, from friendship to passion, quiet sophistication to a bright burst of fun.
	cancer: June 22 - july 22 Zodiac Sign: Often considered the most emotional of the zodiac signs, it’s not surprising to find a bunch of incurable romantics among those born under the sign of Cancer. Some say that the Cancer's personality can be boiled down to one word: sensitivity – and along with this comes a patient, sociable and loving disposition. Birth Sign Flower: Let these generous spirits know how much you appreciate their compassion and thoughtfulness with a flower arrangement filled with delphinium – aptly named for their dolphin-shaped flowers (an appropriate match for this water sign). With symbolism tied to an open heart, ardent attachment and a feeling of lightness and levity, delphinium will appeal to the Cancer’s sensitivity and romanticism.
	leo: july 23 - august 22 Zodiac Sign: The most dominant, spontaneously creative and extroverted of all the zodiac signs, Leos are also warmhearted, generous and loving. Strong, honorable, self-confident and dignified, those who share this birth sign think and act big – loving the limelight (stealing it, if they have to). Birth Sign Flower: Choose a floral arrangement for Leos that matches this fire sign’s big hearted personality – like a flower bouquet filled with attention-grabbing sunflowers. With grand proportions, open faces and symbolism rooted in happiness and warmth, sunflowers capture both the Leo’s confidence and strength as well as their unfussy, loving spirit.
	virgo: august 23 - september 23 Zodiac Sign: With a penchant for detail, Virgos are often known for their meticulous and diligent personalities. And while people born under this zodiac sign are frequently modest and shy, underneath their unassuming, reserved exteriors, there’s a wise and witty side as well, with a keen understanding of the people around them. Birth Sign Flower: Surprise this otherwise practical, intellectual and serious earth sign with a flower arrangement that provokes their more lighthearted side. Daisy-like asters, with their wildflower beauty, star-shaped flowers and lush texture – not to mention their legendary enchanted qualities – will incite a Virgo’s imagination and coax their fun-loving side.
	libra: september 24 - october 23 Zodiac Sign: Considered by many to be the most desirable of the zodiac signs, because it represents the zenith of the year when the harvest of spring’s hard work is reaped, the Libra – with its symbol of the scales – personifies perfect balance and harmony. Romantic and charming, those born under this air sign are naturally kind and gentle. Birth Sign Flower: With their strong wooden stems and lacey, star-shaped pom-poms, hydrangeas personify the balance of opposites – a fitting choice for Libras. Symbolizing heartfelt sincerity and the giver’s gratefulness for a recipient’s understanding nature, a hydrangea flower arrangement also captures the Libra’s thoughtful and gentle disposition.
	scorpio: october 24 - november 22 Zodiac Sign: Known as the most intense of the zodiac signs, Scorpios are both powerful and passionate. Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their conviction strong (if not at times overwhelming), and yet Scorpios are also deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions. When inspired, it’s said that those born under this water sign can exceed limits in almost all endeavors. In fact, Scorpios are said to be more likely to become geniuses than those born under any other zodiac sign. Birth Sign Flower: Indulge the sensual and passionate Scorpio with a floral bouquet of lush red peonies. With their luxuriously full shape and bold, passionate red color, these flowers embody both a sense of romance (a complement to the Scorpio’s sensitivity) and power. Also regarded an as omen of good fortune and prosperity, they’re a fitting match for the Scorpio’s fierce potential.
	Sagittarius: November 23 - december 21 Zodiac Sign: The centaur – the horse-and-man symbol for the Sagittarius zodiac sign – represents a combination of powerful intellect teamed with physical strength and energy. Strong, independent spirits and full of energy, Sagittarians are naturally open-minded and thirst for new ways of thinking, craving travel and exploration. Ambitious and optimistic, a Sagittarian’s hopes are not easily dashed, and perhaps because of this, they tend to find much luck in life. Birth Sign Flower: Capture the Sagittarian’s multi-dimensional personality with carnations – an equally multi-dimensional flower. Associated with a myriad of symbolism – from to love to fascination, distinction to luck (when white), carnations aptly reflect this fire sign’s passionate nature, hunger for adventure, intellect and good fortune. And, as a flower known for its inherently long-lasting nature, carnations personify the Sagittarian’s strength and endurance.
	capricorn: december 22 - january 20 Zodiac Sign: The responsible, reliable Capricorn is one of the most stable and serious of the zodiac signs, so it’s not surprising that they’re an earth sign – deeply rooted and happiest when the ground around them is secure and steady. Although practicality and self-discipline are such an integral part of their nature, like the rest of us, Capricorns appreciate a little indulgence and beauty – which is why it’s so much fun to surprise them with it. Birth Sign Flower: The Capricorn’s responsible, dependable personality makes them ideal caretakers for a long-lasting plant – and African violets, with their bright colorful flowers and soft, velvety petals – deliver an added indulgence. Symbolizing faithfulness – a trait in keeping with the Capricorn’s stable nature – with just a hint of luxuriousness and sensuality, the African violet may just be the Capricorn’s perfect match.
	Aquarius: January 21 - February 19 Zodiac sign: Don’t be fooled by the Aquarian’s love for independence – underneath this zodiac sign’s penchant for autonomy lies a thriving romantic streak as well. An air sign with an honest, loyal, spiritual and intuitive nature, Aquarians are exceptionally committed and faithful to the people they love. And because they can usually be counted on to see the positive side of any situation, the people they love, love to be around them. Birth Sign Flower: With its quiet beauty, artful form and inherent grace, orchids are a perfect complement to the Aquarian’s spiritual and intuitive characteristics. And with symbolism tied to love, beauty and strength, orchids will resonate with this birth sign’s sense of loyalty. Choose pink orchids, representing pure affection, to fuel their romantic streak or surprise them with cattleya orchids to convey mature charm.
	pisces: February 20 - march 20 Zodiac sign: Known for their gentleness and patience, those born under the zodiac sign of Pisces excel at understanding themselves and others more than any other birth sign. A water sign with an open heart, generous spirit and compassion, it’s not surprising that Pisces tend to be popular with all kinds of people. Easygoing and affectionate, they lead with emotion rather than rationality and are more often ruled by instinct over intellect. Birth Sign Flower: Send a Pisces flowers that convey your great admiration and appreciation, while still keeping in mind that their personality can be uncomfortable with grand gestures of affection or a flower arrangement that feels too bold or showy. Alstroemeria, with their delicate blossoms and miniature lily-like appearance capture just the right mix of generous beauty and quiet splendor.

Please. Excuse. The. Rant. (P.E.T.R.)

Pissed. Pissed ALL THE WAY OFF! i'm just on another complete level. Like i have had ENOUGH! It seems like everyone and everything is just pissing me off, nor do i know why. I just really wished that for once things would go my way. Today also just so happens to be the day of homecoming. *oh joy*  and in all honesty i'm not excited. I actually dont even really want to go anymore. But because i've already bought a dress, shoes, a ticket etc. i guess i will. even though i really dont want to. I'd rather go somewhere and be alone. or be with someone who can sympathize with me. Especially since i been giving out a shit tone of sympathy lately. Then to people who dont deserve it at that. I am too nice of a person. *and thats not something you'll ever hear anyone say* I am a mean person, I'm blunt, and I dont care. So now here i am sitting at the computer ranting, going off... I just seriously hope that tonight is a lot better than today has been. The dance isn't until 7:30 and I'm going to go take pictures at 7 but i also need to go to old town and take some pictures before i head over to my friends house to take pictures with them. SOOOO yeah.

It's another Monday Morning...

Oh how we LOVE monday mornings... I swear monday's are the HARDEST days of the week. There's no comparison. I'm sure many of you have a long week ahead of you. I know I do with homecoming being this week and what not. There's alot of performances, *i have 3 this week* alot of decorating, and of coarse the DANCE! I'm somewhat excited/sad. I'm excited to go but sad it's my last. But either way i'm going to enjoy it... dateless. again.... Not even going there. But it's not important to have a date to homecoming. Because 9 out of 10 you wont leave with the same person. But who cares. Everybody gone dance on Everybody and we gone have a good time. the end.

The OFFICIAL TATTOO!

So incase you didn't know my birthday is September 28th... Which is really soon! I am super excited! And i can NOT wait to go and get my first tattoo. I"m not sure where im going to go to get it done at yet but i definantly know what i want. and that's a humming bird. I dont want color my first go around because im not sure i'll be able to handle it. That's alot for a beginner. so i'll just stick to the basic tat. And here it is...
 

This Boys and Girls is it! I love it because i can always go back and add color and detail to it! I dont feel like i'm going to regret this at all. IT has so much symbolism and meaning... such as

• The hummingbird symbolizes many different concepts. Because of its speed, the hummingbird is known as a messenger and stopper of time. It is also a symbol of love, joy, and beauty. The hummingbird is also able to fly backwards, teaching us that we can look back on our past. But, this bird also teaches that we must not dwell on our past; we need to move forward. When the hummingbird hovers over flowers while drinking nectar, we learn that we should savour each moment, and appreciate the things we love
• Hummingbird is the creature that opens the heart. When the hurt that caused us to close our hearts gets a chance to heal, our hearts are free to open again.
• Hummingbirds teach us fierce independence. They teach us to fight in a way where no one gets hurt. They teach us courage. Having the courage to refrain from creating new trauma by communicating non-violently toward ourselves and others is an important part of healing.
• Because of it's speed the humming bird is know as the messenger and stopper of time.
• It is a symbol of love joy and beauty.

The "Basic"

Ok... so for those of us that wont be ordering a crazy homecoming dress and are stuck buying a basic factory dress i tried to find the cream of the crop looking for dresses from Dillards, Macy's, Davids Bridal, And A couple of other stores that can be found in you local mall. These are dresses that are affordable and wont break the bank. I only hope no one else has the same dress as you.