"I know that we've personally had our up's and our down's. I know that things havent always been great between us but when they were great they were AMAZING. The two of us have something because if we didnt we would just be done and move on. But we havent. were drawn to each other like magnets. Try to pull us apart and we'll still draw to each other. We cant let it go, and we wont move on and maybe that's because we werent meant to. As the saying goes " If you love them let them go, if they come back you have them for life" we have tested this theory to no end. How many times have we said that we were done with the other? but yet here you are and here I am.
I'm tired of contemplating what we could be, because I know that we could be something crazy great for the both of us. But yet were not living up to our potential and it kills me to know that. And yet everytime we get close we push each other away and act as though the other dont exist but.... i cant anymore. i see your pictures, or the mention of your name and my heart drops and stops beating. Only the mention of your name, and you can stop my heart. imagine what you do whenever you are around and your touching me... Im officially on another planet at that point.... And i love that feeling. I want that feeling, i feen for that feeling, I need that feeling. Because it's become something like a drug... I love the feeling but it eventually wears off and i need more! I need more of you! SO much more. I want for you to be there in the way that i want you to be there. Have my back and i'll have yours. Uplift me when im down, love me unconditionally, tell me im beautiful even on days when i look like shit. I want you to be so much more. And i care so much about you that i only want to see you happy. Even if that isnt with me. Your happiness is always a priority. I just feel that we could be happy together. Sometimes i feel like i've found the one, and your that one.
Sometimes i even feel like your the one thats meant to be the one. The one and only, the number one, the first. I want for it to be you soooooo bad. I want for you to have that one thing thats so sacred and special, but then i dont want to give it away and regret it. Because once it's gone you cant get it back. And im not ready to pay for mistakes, or deal with consequences... And neither are you. But those are the choices we make. I think about you so much it's as though you live inside of my mind. Wondering where you are, what your doing who your with... Wondering if you thing of me like i think about you... probally not.
I think to myself that we've wasted so much time... if only we could get it back. But one day with you is better than no days at all. I'd rather live a life time knowing that one happiness than knowing none at all. Maybe we should stop wasting time... maybe we should do all the things we've wanted to do... In the library, behind a vending machine, behind a bus... everything before it's too late. Because i cant bear to loose you knowing that i could never see you again and not have memories to sustain me through my days... I feel that one day God will bring you back to me should we have to part... Because I feel that you serve a more meaningful pupose in my life than i or you know.
Time is ticking... it wont ever stop... waste no more time..."
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