Here in America something needs to be done. We have people, and now children dying over senseless violence. People getting shot over Jordans, teens taking guns to parties just incase something "pops off" and innocent people are the ones getting killed. This is stupid. We need stricter gun laws. We cant just issue a gun license to every american because "They have the right to bear arms." Yea, o.k. So lets just give everyone a gun... yeah, there'd be a major decrease in american population, and a major increase in the funeral business. There needs to be background checks and psychiatric examinations given to those in attempt to acquire a gun permit. Also guns should not be sold to anyone without a license. Therefore making fire arms harder to acquire and therefore decreasing gun violence here in america. And those that are caught with a firearm without a license need to have their weapon confiscated and put on a 3 strike policy. Possessing a firearm without a permit would be the equivalent of a misdemeanor. After so many chances you have to suffer the consequence. But of coarse that's just my opinion. But seriously something needs to be done about this. Anyone can easily be killed with a gun... Anyone. Keep that in mind.
Friday, December 21, 2012
Gun Control
We all like to think of ourselves as good people. We all think that were decent human beings right? Or at least i'd like to think that everyone considers themselves as a good person, but I know that we don't live in a perfect world, and no one is without their flaws, and that there are some people in the world who are bad people. People who do evil things that are hurtful to not only the victims but to everyone nation wide. If you haven't guessed i'm referring to the Newton school shooting. Innocent children, killed for no reason at all, and even if there were reason no child should have to loose their life, and I cant even imagine a reason that someone would think it was reasonable to kill a child. It was heartbreaking to sit and watch the news and see images from the school of parents crying, mourning the loss of their child. I can't imagine what it would be like to loose a child. Especially when they're so young and had their whole lives ahead of them. I can imagine however, that it was extremely hard to loose them right before the holidays... Those parents had probably purchased gifts for their kids, and now their kids aren't here... That's sad. It really is. And to think that one man did this. One man, for who knows what reason. Whatever the reason was it wasn't right. It was just wrong. I'm honestly one to stay in my lane, and mind my business, but i couldn't keep silent on this one. Imagine if that had've been your little sister, brother, niece, nephew or cousin. Imagine how hurt you'd be. That tragedy could've easily occurred at any given school. Any of us could be going through that. My heart goes out to the families of the students who lives were lost, and even the students who were lucky enough to make it out of there alive. Going through an event like that at a young age can be traumatizing... It can seriously damage them, and haunt them all their lives. My heart and prayers go out to all of them.
Here in America something needs to be done. We have people, and now children dying over senseless violence. People getting shot over Jordans, teens taking guns to parties just incase something "pops off" and innocent people are the ones getting killed. This is stupid. We need stricter gun laws. We cant just issue a gun license to every american because "They have the right to bear arms." Yea, o.k. So lets just give everyone a gun... yeah, there'd be a major decrease in american population, and a major increase in the funeral business. There needs to be background checks and psychiatric examinations given to those in attempt to acquire a gun permit. Also guns should not be sold to anyone without a license. Therefore making fire arms harder to acquire and therefore decreasing gun violence here in america. And those that are caught with a firearm without a license need to have their weapon confiscated and put on a 3 strike policy. Possessing a firearm without a permit would be the equivalent of a misdemeanor. After so many chances you have to suffer the consequence. But of coarse that's just my opinion. But seriously something needs to be done about this. Anyone can easily be killed with a gun... Anyone. Keep that in mind.
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Here in America something needs to be done. We have people, and now children dying over senseless violence. People getting shot over Jordans, teens taking guns to parties just incase something "pops off" and innocent people are the ones getting killed. This is stupid. We need stricter gun laws. We cant just issue a gun license to every american because "They have the right to bear arms." Yea, o.k. So lets just give everyone a gun... yeah, there'd be a major decrease in american population, and a major increase in the funeral business. There needs to be background checks and psychiatric examinations given to those in attempt to acquire a gun permit. Also guns should not be sold to anyone without a license. Therefore making fire arms harder to acquire and therefore decreasing gun violence here in america. And those that are caught with a firearm without a license need to have their weapon confiscated and put on a 3 strike policy. Possessing a firearm without a permit would be the equivalent of a misdemeanor. After so many chances you have to suffer the consequence. But of coarse that's just my opinion. But seriously something needs to be done about this. Anyone can easily be killed with a gun... Anyone. Keep that in mind.
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Why we wait for love...
At this point my blog might as well be a relationship blog... It seems as though that is what the majority of my post are about anyways... Sometimes i tend to relate these post to things going on in my love life as well as friends of mine or things that just so happen to come up in discussion, so please don't think that it's all me, and i'm just out of control. lol.
Ok, so to the point. Why we wait for love... Why do we wait for love? Out of desperation? Distance? Fear of being alone? Why do we wait for love?
Well... Sometimes we wait for love, because we don't know what else to do... and because of the reasons I just listed. We'll find someone that we really care for, but they're not in the same place as us. We'll be looking for a relationship, and looking for something intellectual, and deep. Searching for a connection, and looking for love, but they're not looking for a relationship. They just want someone to kick it with, looking for company... and sometimes in the end you get hurt. That's why it's important to know what you both want from the beginning. You will easily waste your time on someone who at the end of the day isn't looking for what your looking for. Now here's where the problem comes in... You wait... Thinking that you can change the person. Or better yet you wait thinking that they'll change on their own. Have some kind of magical epiphany and realize that they want the same things you want... Well keep waiting for that miracle because 9 times out of 10 they won't have that epiphany. Sorry. And the sooner you realize that the better off you'll be. You can stop wasting your time on someone who's not benefiting you and giving you what you want and can better use your time to find someone who does. The worst thing you could do is to pass up on someone else who has great potential because your stuck in a situation where your waiting for someone else... That's only hurting yourself. And like I said the sooner you realize that the better.
Then there's the different situations with different circumstances... Such as the long distance... Lets say he doesn't want to be in relationship right now because you two are far apart and don't get to see each other. Thats reasonable because long distance relationships are hard. Especially with no face time what so ever. That just makes it even more hard. But some people can make it work. With the time and the effort, and maturity it's possible.
Another situation could be that he's not ready RIGHT NOW to be in a relationship. Which means that in time he'll one day be ready. But who knows when that day may come? So with that being said, it's o.k. to wait... at max I say a year... But if you have the patience to wait longer, that's on you. But after a year if you two aren't officially dating then there's a problem... Either he has some sort of commitment issues or... something. Either way it's not right. But i say at least a year... That's just taking it slow... Be friends. Chill. Kick it. Really get to know one another on a deep level. Build trust, and friendship first then a relationship will follow. Hopefully... Otherwise, after a year of waiting it's probably just best to keep it moving... Find someone else. You do have a life to live that doesn't require you to wait for love from someone who has no intention of giving it to you...
Just be aware of your situation and circumstances, and look out for yourself... Sometimes we choose to not see the obvious things that are right in front of our faces because were so optimistic that things will fall into place. But if the pieces don't fit they can't fall into place now can they?
So i conclude with a quote. "Love is not about how long I can wait for someone, but about how well I understand why I am waiting." Which in other words, have a GOOD reason for waiting...
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Ok, so to the point. Why we wait for love... Why do we wait for love? Out of desperation? Distance? Fear of being alone? Why do we wait for love?
Well... Sometimes we wait for love, because we don't know what else to do... and because of the reasons I just listed. We'll find someone that we really care for, but they're not in the same place as us. We'll be looking for a relationship, and looking for something intellectual, and deep. Searching for a connection, and looking for love, but they're not looking for a relationship. They just want someone to kick it with, looking for company... and sometimes in the end you get hurt. That's why it's important to know what you both want from the beginning. You will easily waste your time on someone who at the end of the day isn't looking for what your looking for. Now here's where the problem comes in... You wait... Thinking that you can change the person. Or better yet you wait thinking that they'll change on their own. Have some kind of magical epiphany and realize that they want the same things you want... Well keep waiting for that miracle because 9 times out of 10 they won't have that epiphany. Sorry. And the sooner you realize that the better off you'll be. You can stop wasting your time on someone who's not benefiting you and giving you what you want and can better use your time to find someone who does. The worst thing you could do is to pass up on someone else who has great potential because your stuck in a situation where your waiting for someone else... That's only hurting yourself. And like I said the sooner you realize that the better.
Then there's the different situations with different circumstances... Such as the long distance... Lets say he doesn't want to be in relationship right now because you two are far apart and don't get to see each other. Thats reasonable because long distance relationships are hard. Especially with no face time what so ever. That just makes it even more hard. But some people can make it work. With the time and the effort, and maturity it's possible.
Another situation could be that he's not ready RIGHT NOW to be in a relationship. Which means that in time he'll one day be ready. But who knows when that day may come? So with that being said, it's o.k. to wait... at max I say a year... But if you have the patience to wait longer, that's on you. But after a year if you two aren't officially dating then there's a problem... Either he has some sort of commitment issues or... something. Either way it's not right. But i say at least a year... That's just taking it slow... Be friends. Chill. Kick it. Really get to know one another on a deep level. Build trust, and friendship first then a relationship will follow. Hopefully... Otherwise, after a year of waiting it's probably just best to keep it moving... Find someone else. You do have a life to live that doesn't require you to wait for love from someone who has no intention of giving it to you...
Just be aware of your situation and circumstances, and look out for yourself... Sometimes we choose to not see the obvious things that are right in front of our faces because were so optimistic that things will fall into place. But if the pieces don't fit they can't fall into place now can they?
So i conclude with a quote. "Love is not about how long I can wait for someone, but about how well I understand why I am waiting." Which in other words, have a GOOD reason for waiting...
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
After you've done all you can, you just stand
So many times are we faced with a situation where we are being challenged with a situation. Sometimes that situation is a lot harder than we expect it to be. Many times these challenges test us to our limits. They push us to see just how far were willing to go. Just how much were willing to take before we've had enough. Once we reach that limit when we've had enough and we can't take anymore we throw in the towel and give up. Giving up isn't ideal, and no one wants to do it, but sometimes we are defeated and have no other alternative. Just because you've come to a point when you're defeated doesn't mean that it's over. Perhaps there is another way to accomplish the challenge or obstacle you've been presented with. For every obstacle there has to be an alternative route, and if there is no alternative route then you should probably abandon the challenge. But if there is an alternative way to accomplish the goal then all alternatives should be attempted before completely throwing in the towel. Have some faith in yourself and believe that you can accomplish anything. I preach this message today, needing to hear some encouraging words myself. Sometimes we just need to hear some encouraging words. And those are mine for today. Especially to those of you college students with finals this week. Best of luck to everyone.
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Monday, November 26, 2012
In other news...
Thanksgiving break is over people! Back to the grind for a few more weeks then christmas break! *Silent cheer* But with that, that means that finals are coming up, so that means buckling down and getting to the work!
Now in other news...
For those of you who don't know i attend Valdosta State University. Recently (The week before last) we had a student Jasmine Benjamin pass away on campus. Now if your somebody like me, and you and death aint too fond of each other having someone die in a area where you have to sleep and go to class etc... isn't a happy thought. Because every time you walk past that building it's just like Oh yeah, somebody died there. Uhhhh... Not cool.
Now here's the story: So on saturday night there was a lot of drunk people hanging out in Georgia hall. I know because a few of my friends went to go laugh at the drunk kids in the lobby. I on the other hand stayed in Langdale and was kickin shit... as always. So i ended up back in my room before they came back at whatever time it was that they came back. The next day I get a text saying "Hey did you hear about the girl who died last night in Georgia?" Whaaaat? Of coarse my first reaction is "the fuck you mean?" And turns out a girl did die in Georgia. Soooo as expected the rumor got to work and started churning out all kinds of crazy ass rumors. There were rumors that she had a heart attack, and some rumors that she was so drunk that she choked on her own vomit and died. (which is a really sad ass way to die.) But nobody apparently knows for sure. They're all just rumors. Then my family being the nosy people that they are all start blowing up my phone asking me what happened like i was there or something and i'm just like "I don't know why are ya'll calling me?" They know as much as I do. But apparently over fall break her death was rulled as a homicide... meaning she was murdered. uh oh... A student was murdered on campus? Not a good look for VSU... That right there is going to cause parents to start pulling students from down here, and also is going to steer potential students in a different direction. Which i strongly advise anyways. But i personally have a eerie feeling about being on campus. It feels less safe and secure, and as much money as i spend on tuition I need to feel safe and secure here seeing as how i am stuck here. But on the real, It's really sad that she died, and if it is true that her death was a homicide then that is even more sad. I'm sure eventually there will be some kind of memorial dedicated to her on campus. And i am also sure that VSU is being super quiet with the details of the case to keep students, parents and potential students calm. I would honestly rather them to just tell us whats going on so that 1. we can put the rumor mill out of business and 2. We can give students and parents a piece of mind. My own mother called me saying that she heard that she was strangled. My mom is in Atlanta. How did she hear this? Where are these rumors coming from? If my mom who is four hours away is calling me about once every hour to check on me then we have a problem because she's concerned about my safety. I'm not too worried but obviously she is. Hence forth why somebody needs to let us know whats really going!
Anyways. Prayers go out to her family because I know that's got to be hard to deal with. And also prayers for all of us students that we stay safe here on campus.
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Now in other news...
For those of you who don't know i attend Valdosta State University. Recently (The week before last) we had a student Jasmine Benjamin pass away on campus. Now if your somebody like me, and you and death aint too fond of each other having someone die in a area where you have to sleep and go to class etc... isn't a happy thought. Because every time you walk past that building it's just like Oh yeah, somebody died there. Uhhhh... Not cool.
Now here's the story: So on saturday night there was a lot of drunk people hanging out in Georgia hall. I know because a few of my friends went to go laugh at the drunk kids in the lobby. I on the other hand stayed in Langdale and was kickin shit... as always. So i ended up back in my room before they came back at whatever time it was that they came back. The next day I get a text saying "Hey did you hear about the girl who died last night in Georgia?" Whaaaat? Of coarse my first reaction is "the fuck you mean?" And turns out a girl did die in Georgia. Soooo as expected the rumor got to work and started churning out all kinds of crazy ass rumors. There were rumors that she had a heart attack, and some rumors that she was so drunk that she choked on her own vomit and died. (which is a really sad ass way to die.) But nobody apparently knows for sure. They're all just rumors. Then my family being the nosy people that they are all start blowing up my phone asking me what happened like i was there or something and i'm just like "I don't know why are ya'll calling me?" They know as much as I do. But apparently over fall break her death was rulled as a homicide... meaning she was murdered. uh oh... A student was murdered on campus? Not a good look for VSU... That right there is going to cause parents to start pulling students from down here, and also is going to steer potential students in a different direction. Which i strongly advise anyways. But i personally have a eerie feeling about being on campus. It feels less safe and secure, and as much money as i spend on tuition I need to feel safe and secure here seeing as how i am stuck here. But on the real, It's really sad that she died, and if it is true that her death was a homicide then that is even more sad. I'm sure eventually there will be some kind of memorial dedicated to her on campus. And i am also sure that VSU is being super quiet with the details of the case to keep students, parents and potential students calm. I would honestly rather them to just tell us whats going on so that 1. we can put the rumor mill out of business and 2. We can give students and parents a piece of mind. My own mother called me saying that she heard that she was strangled. My mom is in Atlanta. How did she hear this? Where are these rumors coming from? If my mom who is four hours away is calling me about once every hour to check on me then we have a problem because she's concerned about my safety. I'm not too worried but obviously she is. Hence forth why somebody needs to let us know whats really going!
Anyways. Prayers go out to her family because I know that's got to be hard to deal with. And also prayers for all of us students that we stay safe here on campus.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
On this Journey...
Were all patiently awaiting that one day when that special someone will just walk into our lives... *or at least trying to wait patiently* But for some reason it seems like that day will never come. Especially when you're surrounded by guys who aren't looking for love, but quick infatuation to get the feeling they've been feigning from your preciousness... if you know what I mean. It seems as though that's all everyone wants is sex, no strings attached. No one wants relationships, No one wants love, of feelings, No one want's a real connection. Or at least from the female stand point no guy wants that. And then there are some that will disagree and say that they're looking to love, but they don't love as easily as we love... Which is honestly not a bad thing. It keeps them from getting hurt unlike us females who are so quick to be "in love." We always thinking that were "In love" with somebody when were not. Were just in some real strong infatuation... Strong enough to cause us to get caught up, catching feelings for someone that definitely doesn't return our same feelings. Unrequited love is the worst kind of love. It hurts, it's confusing, it leads you on, and taunts you in the worst way. But you have to let it go. Why waste time and effort on someone who doesn't remotely feel the same way as you. If you're going to put in work, put in work where you can see results. Which is not to say lower your standards, or go for people below you (Which there is nothing wrong with that) But it's basically to say don't waste your time.
Then when someone walks into your life, and they're good to you but you don't think they're the ones, give them the love they give you. Because they could turn out to be the one but you just don't realize it at the time being. People do change, and at first you can't really see them for who and what they are. It's sometimes difficult to see through a person and see them for who they are... The same way you can get to know someone so well you can finish their sentences, know their favorite foods, colors, spaces, and deepest darkest secrets you want to find someone who knows just as much about you. Someone that you can be completely honest with and share all your secrets with without holding back. You want not just a relationship but a friendship first. Someone that's your best friend. You need more than love, even though that may seem like it's all you want and will ever need, you need more than that. You need someone who genuinely cares about you, your health, your safety, and happiness. Someone that you have things in common with and can talk to about anything, and can enjoy each others company without jumping down each others throats. That's what you NEED, and what you SHOULD want, but i can't tell you what to need or want. That's on you to decide.
Many people have the "one" walk right into their lives but people let them walk back out, or even push them out because they're so shallow and have high standards that are just ridiculous. It's not always about the physical... Just because someone isn't the tallest, Handsomest, sexiest, buff-est, or play a sport doesn't make them any less of a good contender. The one you are meant to be with could be right in front of your face and you wouldn't know it because your too busy looking around whats in front of you to find something else.
Constantly i feel as though i'm preaching the same lesson over, and over again. Perhaps in hopes that eventually you all get the memo... Or maybe even that i'll get the memo.
We all want love, and we want it bad. With patience, eventually we'll all get the love we desire one day... We just have to wait and while were on this journey we have to take what were given and work with it...
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Then when someone walks into your life, and they're good to you but you don't think they're the ones, give them the love they give you. Because they could turn out to be the one but you just don't realize it at the time being. People do change, and at first you can't really see them for who and what they are. It's sometimes difficult to see through a person and see them for who they are... The same way you can get to know someone so well you can finish their sentences, know their favorite foods, colors, spaces, and deepest darkest secrets you want to find someone who knows just as much about you. Someone that you can be completely honest with and share all your secrets with without holding back. You want not just a relationship but a friendship first. Someone that's your best friend. You need more than love, even though that may seem like it's all you want and will ever need, you need more than that. You need someone who genuinely cares about you, your health, your safety, and happiness. Someone that you have things in common with and can talk to about anything, and can enjoy each others company without jumping down each others throats. That's what you NEED, and what you SHOULD want, but i can't tell you what to need or want. That's on you to decide.
Many people have the "one" walk right into their lives but people let them walk back out, or even push them out because they're so shallow and have high standards that are just ridiculous. It's not always about the physical... Just because someone isn't the tallest, Handsomest, sexiest, buff-est, or play a sport doesn't make them any less of a good contender. The one you are meant to be with could be right in front of your face and you wouldn't know it because your too busy looking around whats in front of you to find something else.
Constantly i feel as though i'm preaching the same lesson over, and over again. Perhaps in hopes that eventually you all get the memo... Or maybe even that i'll get the memo.
We all want love, and we want it bad. With patience, eventually we'll all get the love we desire one day... We just have to wait and while were on this journey we have to take what were given and work with it...
Friday, November 16, 2012
Pull out your notepads, time to take notes!
If i have never taught you all anything, I'm about to RIGHT NOW! Pull out your pens, paper, and pencils, whatever it is you may need because i'm about to give ya'll some very valuable information. Information that I could swear up and down i've given a couple of times before on this here blog, but for those of you who still haven't got the memo, let me repeat this message.
*caugh cough, clears throat*
When you develop feelings for a person, it's some serious shit... Most of the time. Sometimes we develop these crushes that we think we like a person until we start getting to know them and then we suddenly realize how much we don't, and how much it was based off of their physical appearance. For those of you who get past the physical appearance and genuinely like the person for who they are develop these strong feelings for them. Damn near close to love, but that's not the word to describe said situation. Now eventually can it turn into love? Definitely but, i'm not one to use the "L" word sooooo... lets just not go there. But technically love is a "Feeling" so... interpret that however. whatever.
Now that you've developed these strong feelings for this person you want nothing more than to be with them. You don't want to see anyone else with them, and you feel as though you two belong together. So lets say you two start dating, and then things happen, and you're not sure what but then you guys break up. *gasps* After the break up you're depressed and sad. You just don't know what to do with yourself and you find that you can't stop thinking about them, wondering if they think about you just as much, and you try to rid yourself of all those feelings you have, but guess what? Those feelings will NEVER go away. EVER. And that ladies and gentlemen is a FACT. Those feelings may go into hiding somewhere deep within but all it takes is to see them again, or the mention of their name that can easily reawaken all of those feelings and suddenly you're right back where you started. No bueno. But that's how it is. Feelings like that never go away, especially when you're in "Love." This probably sounds like the worst thing in the world... But it's not. There's things like cancer that's 10x worse. So suck it up, and man up. Is it possible to move on? Yes. Indefinitely. You can move on and date multiple guys. You can even completely forget about them. But like i said all it takes is something simple that can bring it all back.
Now if you're one of those people who after a period of time feel nothing at the mention of their name then you obviously didn't really feel that strongly about them, and you weren't in love, no matter how much you may try to convince yourself you were. Just face it. It wasn't meant to be. But somebody who at the mention of their name makes your stomach cringe, then you might have a serious case. Now am i saying run back to them begging and pleading for them to work things out? NO!!!!!!!! Do not do that!!!! I'm just saying that you really felt some type of way back then. That doesn't mean do a U-turn and go back. Just deal with it for what it is. Sometimes we fail to believe that we'll ever find someone else to love us and that that last person (or whoever) was the last option, but i promise you there are plenty more. There will be another, but who knows when that will be.... So there's going to be some lonely nights, and depressed days but you will get through it.
Just know that you're capable of feeling so strongly about a person. Ofcoarse there will always be a soft spot in your heart for that person, but you have to be smart about it... Just So that I clarify the lesson that was to be learned once you have feelings with someone, they don't go away. You just have to deal with it. The end.
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*caugh cough, clears throat*
When you develop feelings for a person, it's some serious shit... Most of the time. Sometimes we develop these crushes that we think we like a person until we start getting to know them and then we suddenly realize how much we don't, and how much it was based off of their physical appearance. For those of you who get past the physical appearance and genuinely like the person for who they are develop these strong feelings for them. Damn near close to love, but that's not the word to describe said situation. Now eventually can it turn into love? Definitely but, i'm not one to use the "L" word sooooo... lets just not go there. But technically love is a "Feeling" so... interpret that however. whatever.
Now that you've developed these strong feelings for this person you want nothing more than to be with them. You don't want to see anyone else with them, and you feel as though you two belong together. So lets say you two start dating, and then things happen, and you're not sure what but then you guys break up. *gasps* After the break up you're depressed and sad. You just don't know what to do with yourself and you find that you can't stop thinking about them, wondering if they think about you just as much, and you try to rid yourself of all those feelings you have, but guess what? Those feelings will NEVER go away. EVER. And that ladies and gentlemen is a FACT. Those feelings may go into hiding somewhere deep within but all it takes is to see them again, or the mention of their name that can easily reawaken all of those feelings and suddenly you're right back where you started. No bueno. But that's how it is. Feelings like that never go away, especially when you're in "Love." This probably sounds like the worst thing in the world... But it's not. There's things like cancer that's 10x worse. So suck it up, and man up. Is it possible to move on? Yes. Indefinitely. You can move on and date multiple guys. You can even completely forget about them. But like i said all it takes is something simple that can bring it all back.
Now if you're one of those people who after a period of time feel nothing at the mention of their name then you obviously didn't really feel that strongly about them, and you weren't in love, no matter how much you may try to convince yourself you were. Just face it. It wasn't meant to be. But somebody who at the mention of their name makes your stomach cringe, then you might have a serious case. Now am i saying run back to them begging and pleading for them to work things out? NO!!!!!!!! Do not do that!!!! I'm just saying that you really felt some type of way back then. That doesn't mean do a U-turn and go back. Just deal with it for what it is. Sometimes we fail to believe that we'll ever find someone else to love us and that that last person (or whoever) was the last option, but i promise you there are plenty more. There will be another, but who knows when that will be.... So there's going to be some lonely nights, and depressed days but you will get through it.
Just know that you're capable of feeling so strongly about a person. Ofcoarse there will always be a soft spot in your heart for that person, but you have to be smart about it... Just So that I clarify the lesson that was to be learned once you have feelings with someone, they don't go away. You just have to deal with it. The end.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Scary B*****s, Please take a seat.
I think we all can guess what this blog is about. Broads that ain't about that life but desperately try to be. C'mon people please get your life. Not together because that obviously will never happen. But get a life, and hold on to that one and let that be your life. Like Please go to the lost and found, and get a life. (credit to K.J. for that one) But seriously. AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT!
If you have a problem with somebody you have two options. You can 1. Deal with it and approach them about the problem which could be an adult argument or could turn into somebody getting they ass whooped. (Lets hope it's not you but if it is you then you should've went with option number 2.) #2. Shut the fuck up about whatever it is, and move the fuck on. Is number 2 a bitch move? Definitely, but for some people that's the move you need to save face. I'm just saying. If you not gone do anything about it but bitch about it, then just shut up, it's a waste of time... For everyone. Because nobody wants to hear you bitch all the time about the same thing. Especially when were giving you advice on how to deal with the situation which may be ("Beat her ass") but you don't do anything about it.
Now if you have a problem with someone and you're feeling bold enough to approach them but don't go through with it... FAIL. You can't step to someone then punk out. Plus you also need to know how to pick your battles. Some people you just shouldn't try because you know for a fact that you may not live to tell the tale. Like c'mon, be smart about it. But if you gone step don't try to be brave, and say some shit talking out the side of your neck. Especially if your voice gone be cracking and shaking because you're afraid like that's only going to make you look weak. SO don't try to approach someone with that shit. Like i said get your life, and rethink that shit, because that shit will not end well. Get it right.
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If you have a problem with somebody you have two options. You can 1. Deal with it and approach them about the problem which could be an adult argument or could turn into somebody getting they ass whooped. (Lets hope it's not you but if it is you then you should've went with option number 2.) #2. Shut the fuck up about whatever it is, and move the fuck on. Is number 2 a bitch move? Definitely, but for some people that's the move you need to save face. I'm just saying. If you not gone do anything about it but bitch about it, then just shut up, it's a waste of time... For everyone. Because nobody wants to hear you bitch all the time about the same thing. Especially when were giving you advice on how to deal with the situation which may be ("Beat her ass") but you don't do anything about it.
Now if you have a problem with someone and you're feeling bold enough to approach them but don't go through with it... FAIL. You can't step to someone then punk out. Plus you also need to know how to pick your battles. Some people you just shouldn't try because you know for a fact that you may not live to tell the tale. Like c'mon, be smart about it. But if you gone step don't try to be brave, and say some shit talking out the side of your neck. Especially if your voice gone be cracking and shaking because you're afraid like that's only going to make you look weak. SO don't try to approach someone with that shit. Like i said get your life, and rethink that shit, because that shit will not end well. Get it right.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
A little motivation
Sometimes we struggle to get through the day. Or at least i know that i do, and sometimes i have to motivate myself to keep going. Which is something we should all do. Motivate ourselves. We should all have goals that were working towards, and we should keep those goals in mind when things start to get hard.
Right now, i'm being tortured by my circumstances. Which is being imprisoned in Valdosta. (Fair warning to anyone who reads this DO NOT FOR ANY REASON WHAT SO EVER COME TO VALDOSTA GEORGIA, UNLESS IT'S SHORT TERM.) I hate it here, and i can't wait to leave... permanently and never return. Ever. So here's my point i hate it here, and the goal is to transfer schools and leave this hell hole. So when i have a shit load of homework i buckle down and do it, because i know if i don't that i'll be stuck here. And that's not what's up. So leaving here is what motivates me to push throw and keep going.
Sometimes we need to remind ourselves that "I got this" or "I can do this" because sometimes we loose sight of that and quickly give up, and never reach our full potential, nor accomplish our goals. Which isn't what we want. So when things get extremely hard, it's just life testing us to see how badly to we want what we've been working for. If you want it bad enough you won't give up and you will continue to work towards your goal no matter what obstacles are thrown your way. So just hold your head up and motivate yourself to keep going, because you're closer to your goals than you think.
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Right now, i'm being tortured by my circumstances. Which is being imprisoned in Valdosta. (Fair warning to anyone who reads this DO NOT FOR ANY REASON WHAT SO EVER COME TO VALDOSTA GEORGIA, UNLESS IT'S SHORT TERM.) I hate it here, and i can't wait to leave... permanently and never return. Ever. So here's my point i hate it here, and the goal is to transfer schools and leave this hell hole. So when i have a shit load of homework i buckle down and do it, because i know if i don't that i'll be stuck here. And that's not what's up. So leaving here is what motivates me to push throw and keep going.
Sometimes we need to remind ourselves that "I got this" or "I can do this" because sometimes we loose sight of that and quickly give up, and never reach our full potential, nor accomplish our goals. Which isn't what we want. So when things get extremely hard, it's just life testing us to see how badly to we want what we've been working for. If you want it bad enough you won't give up and you will continue to work towards your goal no matter what obstacles are thrown your way. So just hold your head up and motivate yourself to keep going, because you're closer to your goals than you think.
Oh november how you do us so wrong...
Story time!
November 12, 2011
(Almost) One year ago… The absolute sweetest boy I have ever met sent
me a text and told me to meet him in the band room after school because he had
something he wanted to show me. “What could he possibly have to show me?” I
thought to myself. I went through the rest of the debating, questioning, and
wondering what it could be that he wanted to show me. After school, I did as he
asked and came to the band room. He pulled me into the instrument closet and
pulled a ring off his finger. “I got my class ring today, but they messed it
up.” He put the ring in my hand and showed me how the ring was indeed messed
up. I couldn’t believe that he’d had me stay after school and miss my bus home
to show me his class ring. A slight wave of anger came over me, but before the
wave had a chance to completely pass through me he started talking again. “So I
need to ask you something.” He said. “Umm, I was wondering if… You would be my
girlfriend?” I literally believe that my heart stopped, after that. Which is
probably why anything from that point is slightly fuzzy in my mind. I remember
squealing like an idiot, and giving him a hug, and walking around with this
frazzled look on my face not knowing what the fuck to do. It was the first time
that a guy had actually asked me out in all 18 years of my life. It was a pretty big moment for me. I will
always be grateful to that sweet boy who had more courage than any other that I
know. He was the only boy brave enough to admit that he liked me and actually
ask me out, although later that day I politely denied his offer.
You
probably think that I’m crazy for doing that… but let me explain. At that time,
I was a senior in high school, and he was a junior, I had just turned 18, he
just turned 17, and I am a few inches, maybe centimeters taller than him. His
age, grade, and height didn’t really meet the requirements. Now you’re probably
thinking that I’m shallow, but I’m really not. I’m not the type of person who
cares about looks, I think that personality is far more important, but those 3
things are kind of a big deal to me at least. Now the thing was that He really
was the sweetest guy I had ever met. He had the most amazing personality, had
so much heart, and definitely was his own person. No one could change that.
Plus, he was a Libra just like me, so you know he was hard headed, and
stubborn. As always after it happened I
called my friends in search of advice and guidance, and one of them said to me
“Stop beating around the bush and just tell the boy that you don’t like him”
but that in fact was not true. I did like him, and I knew that much for a fact.
I called a couple more friends and one of them said to me “You know what your
problem is? You care to much about what other people will say and think. You
know you want to tell that boy yes. I just don’t see why you give a fuck what
other people think?” That was the most profound statement that I’d heard. Why
did I care? Let people think what they want, because my happiness and shot at a
good guy was on the line and guess what I did? You already know, I told him no,
and that we should work our way there.
November 17, 2011
After thinking about it for about a week, I told him to meet
me after school this time. This time I actually had an excuse to stay after school;
I was helping a friend in the school pageant. So after school we met up in the
hallway and popped a squat across from the counseling office. I looked at him
and said, “I know what I said before, but I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and
I think you should ask me again.” He had the most confused look on his face,
like he had absolutely no clue what was going on. After what I assume was him
trying to figure out was going on he asked me to be his girlfriend again, but
this time I said yes. He still sat there looking confused like he didn’t
believe my answer. “Yes?” he questioned me, still in disbelief. It really
touched me that he couldn’t believe that I’d said yes.
Who can honestly believe that nearly a year has passed since
then? A whole year… It definitely hasn’t been the most pleasant year. Nor was
it easy, for either of us. In fact we didn’t even make it a whole year. Not
even 2 months actually. It’s sad, but it’s true. Even though we weren’t
together we still had love for each other just as we do today. With all my
heart, I still have love for the sweetest guy I have ever met. No one can touch
him, he’s on a level all his own. It's like that Usher song: my boo. "There's always that one person that will always have your heart." And that even though you're not together and you're with other people that's still your boo.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Please Consider the following message...
I'm about to hit a very touch subject. And i'm sure that this blog may be debatable but, I'm just gonna throw it out there because this is my damn blog and i can blog about whatever i want!
With that being said. Here's the topic: Your first time.
No this isn't about to be a sex ed. blog. And this isn't about me preaching abstinence either. This is more along the lines of how do you know that the person your willing to give it up to is the right guy? The answer to this is simple, You NEVER know, but there are some things/ signs that tell you whether or not you're about to make a big mistake. Guys are slick! I'm trying to tell y'all. They are too slick. Slicker than damn chicken grease! They know all the right things to say and do to get to you. And they'll have you thinking that they're mr. perfect. But trust me, they just running game, and if you fall for it you'll just be another victim on the list. Don't be another name on his list of victims. Don't be a victim! Be the offender! It's like one of my favorite Rihanna lyrics "I'll never play the victim, I'd rather be the stalker." I agree. I'd rather be the one breaking hearts, than getting my heart broken. But that's just me being a hard ass.Anyways here's some things to think about.
1.) Will he return my feelings afterwards?
- Lets first establish what that means. After sex, i guarantee you will be caught up in the moment feeling some type of way. Thinking that you're just oh so in love. But the question really is will he be feeling the same way about you? Don't lie to yourself either. Don't try to convince yourself that he'll feel the same way. If you even have to convince yourself then he probably wont. Let's just be honest. And even if you think he may return your feelings will it be 100%?
2.) Does he honestly even really care about you?
- You may think that he loves you, and deeply cares about you, but it's amazing what guys will do just to hit. I'm not even lying. Guys will date girls for long periods of times just to get it. So don't be fooled. And it should also be a sign if everything between the two of you is physical. If there's no intellectual between the two of you then there's obviously a problem. A relationship is based on more than just physical attraction. If everything between the two of you has been about physical then you might wanna rethink having sex with him. Because that's all he wants.
3.) If he's impatient, rushing you, and not willing to wait, RUN THE OTHER WAY!
- If a guy really does care about you then he will wait. No matter how long the wait. When you're ready he'll be ready don't worry. But if he's pressuring you into it before your ready then he's not the one. Don't let anybody pressure you into doing anything you don't want to do. You have the right to say no, so use it. Besides if he's not willing to work for it, then he doesn't deserve it. Nobody gets anything for free, including the nookie! Let 'em know! And even if they do work for it, and even put in over time, you still have to consider how does he really feel about you? Is he only doing it because he really wants to hit? Or does he really care.
4.) Will you regret it afterwards?
- So many times have i known people to have sex, and IMMEDIATELY regret it. Yeah it happens. You may think that you won't regret it, but afterwards when he gets up and leaves, and no longer returns your phone calls, will you regret it then? You have to think about the end in mind. Will you two even stay together? Will he tell everybody that he "tapped that." Sadly you have to consider the negative, even though I know when you're caught up in the moment that thinking is the last thing your doing. I know all to well.
Take into consideration everything i said because you don't want to end up in a situation where you had sex, regret it, and in the end get your heart broken and your innocence taken. You don't want that, nobody does. So just really think about it. And usually i advise against over thinking but on this one i give full permission. It's just necessary. Be safe, and cautious.
Jealousy
Jealousy can come in many different forms. It's never a good thing but it happens. It does. When you see the people around you having a good time, being happy, living their lives you envy them when your life isn't just as great. It's especially hard to not be jealous when the people you once were surrounded by are all over social networks with their happy lives and it may seem like they're flaunting they're happy lives in your face but they're not intentionally. But even though your life may not be as happy it's good to just take it as it is, and at least try to be happy for them. I mean in terms of Karma maybe something good will happen. You put out good you get good, you put out bad, you get bad. Simple as that. And it's ok to be jealous. It's a part of life. But don't let that jealousy cause you to be mean or rude to other people though. Like i said just try to be happy for them. Your good time will come. You just have to be patient of coarse.
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Thursday, September 27, 2012
Sometimes i just need some XoXo
Before i begin with the rest of this blog. Let me just first of all clarify what "XoXo" is for those of you who may not know... hugs and kisses. Glad we established that. Now moving on.
Today (september 27th) is the eve of my birthday. Yes, i'll be 19 tomorrow. Another year older, another year wiser... etc... and all that good stuff. I am truly blessed and highly favored. I've never really lost anyone close to me. I've never been severely injured, no broken bones, nada. I've always had a roof over my head, and food on my table. I can truly say that God has looked over me. For me to say otherwise would be a complete lie. I've always had friends, and never gotten into real trouble. I've always somehow gotten just about everything i've ever wanted, and if my parents (and grandparents) couldn't get me exactly what i wanted they came damn near close to it. I've always had love, and a support system, full of great friends and a large family. You could say i've lived a charmed life.
This year however will be different. This year i'll be spending my birthday alone. With no family or loved ones to hug me, and wish me happy birthday. This year all i'll be getting is phone calls, text messages, and fb post. Why? Once again the source of everything wrong with my life. College. Words can not express the hatred i have for Valdosta. I can not possibly wait to get the hell off from down here. I just pray that I make it through the year. So that i can get out of here. But, it's really sad and depressing that i'll be alone for my birthday. It doesn't even feel like my birthday. And it really hadn't even doned upon me that my birthday was tomorrow until 1:30 am last night. It's really sad. I feel heartbroken, unloved, and unimportant. But "it be like that sometimes" as they say. All i really want for my birthday is to go home and see my mom, and dad, and even brother, and for them to hug me and tell me "HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOO!" Hearing it over the phone isn't the same as hearing it through a phone call. It seems so impersonal, and fake. But it's whatever. Right?
WRONG!
I'd give anything in the world right about now to go home and see my parents for my birthday. Or for them to come to me. Sometimes you never realize how much some people mean to you until there not there anymore. "You don't know what you got 'till it's gone." that is the truest quote. It's crazy how you can go from being a socialite, talking to so many people daily, to talking to no one but yourself. I guess tomorrow i'll sing happy birthday to myself and try not to break down into tears from the utter loneliness that i feel. Although i'm pretty sure i'll be in tears by midnight, and just completely depressed.
So happy birthday to me. XoXo to myself, because no one else can.
Today (september 27th) is the eve of my birthday. Yes, i'll be 19 tomorrow. Another year older, another year wiser... etc... and all that good stuff. I am truly blessed and highly favored. I've never really lost anyone close to me. I've never been severely injured, no broken bones, nada. I've always had a roof over my head, and food on my table. I can truly say that God has looked over me. For me to say otherwise would be a complete lie. I've always had friends, and never gotten into real trouble. I've always somehow gotten just about everything i've ever wanted, and if my parents (and grandparents) couldn't get me exactly what i wanted they came damn near close to it. I've always had love, and a support system, full of great friends and a large family. You could say i've lived a charmed life.
This year however will be different. This year i'll be spending my birthday alone. With no family or loved ones to hug me, and wish me happy birthday. This year all i'll be getting is phone calls, text messages, and fb post. Why? Once again the source of everything wrong with my life. College. Words can not express the hatred i have for Valdosta. I can not possibly wait to get the hell off from down here. I just pray that I make it through the year. So that i can get out of here. But, it's really sad and depressing that i'll be alone for my birthday. It doesn't even feel like my birthday. And it really hadn't even doned upon me that my birthday was tomorrow until 1:30 am last night. It's really sad. I feel heartbroken, unloved, and unimportant. But "it be like that sometimes" as they say. All i really want for my birthday is to go home and see my mom, and dad, and even brother, and for them to hug me and tell me "HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOO!" Hearing it over the phone isn't the same as hearing it through a phone call. It seems so impersonal, and fake. But it's whatever. Right?
WRONG!
I'd give anything in the world right about now to go home and see my parents for my birthday. Or for them to come to me. Sometimes you never realize how much some people mean to you until there not there anymore. "You don't know what you got 'till it's gone." that is the truest quote. It's crazy how you can go from being a socialite, talking to so many people daily, to talking to no one but yourself. I guess tomorrow i'll sing happy birthday to myself and try not to break down into tears from the utter loneliness that i feel. Although i'm pretty sure i'll be in tears by midnight, and just completely depressed.
So happy birthday to me. XoXo to myself, because no one else can.
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
I remember, how could i forget?
"I remember how could I forget how you feel." ~ Frank Ocean
-thinking bout you
The process of getting over somebody, is ridiculously long, hard, and difficult. Especially considering how you may think your completely over somebody but then all it takes is a look, a hug, a "hi", or even a picture that can completely send you right back to where you started. I personally think that it's impossible to be 100% over a person. It just isn't going to happen, because a peice of you will always have feelings for that person. That will probably never go away.
You can't erase feelings. If we could, believe me i would've done that a long time ago. But you just cant. You simply have to accept how you feel, and deal with the circumstances of the situation. Wheather that situation is going in your favor or not. And seeing as how this particular post is about moving on, lets just say that it's not in your favor. Unfortunatly things don't always work out in relationships, and we all know that. Sometimes you might be in the process of trying to be in a relationship, or just might have a serious crush and for whatever reason it just doesn't work out. So now that you have all of these built up emotions, what are you supposed to do, because you cant just make it go away. You can't help but to feel something. Especially hurt. That feeling of complete hurt is when the healing process begins. Now that you've realized that it's over but your somewhat heart broken you can now pick up the peices of your broken heart and begin to put them back together. This is easier said then done. It's gonna take a lot of time, dedication, and persistance to get over it. Sometimes you might feel the urge to hold a grudge and you might even be bitter, but lets be honest, thats not the way to go. DONT LET THE WRONG GUY MESS YOU UP FOR THE RIGHT GUY. That is a very important statement. infact i feel that i shoud say it again: DONT LET THE WRONG GUY MESS YOU UP FOR THE RIGHT GUY. O.k. that's two times. Hopefully you got the memo. Now i'm positive that unless you went off to college, or moved away, that it's going to be near impossible to completely avoid this person. (be it guy, or girl, no judgment.) So the next time you see them are you going to
A.) burst into tears
B.) give him the death stare
C.) randomly spaz, and completely go off on him
D.) play it cool smile, and keep it moving.
Using common sense which one sounds like the best answer? If you said anything other than D. you might want to seriously consider re-evaluating your life. D. is the best answer. Don't let him know that he's gotten under your skin. Trust me, them knowing that they got you is the biggest reward for them. Not only that now that they see what kind of affect they have on you they will continue to toy with your emotions just for the fun of it. Don't give them that power. Don't let them have it. Be the bigger person. At least on the outside. I'm sure that you'll be dying on the inside damn near tears, but on the outside don't let that out.
I know that it's hard. Especially when it's someone who was your first love. You never forget your first love. Although you may try, it's not going to happen. I promise you you'll always remember. And you may ask yourself what was i thinking, but he'll always have a soft spot in your heart.
Moral of the post is, It's hard to get over someone. It really is, but we have to try. And even though we can put everything we have into moving on, it's impossible to forget, and feelings don't just disapear so it's impossible to fully get over someone. But don't worry, your not alone.
-thinking bout you
The process of getting over somebody, is ridiculously long, hard, and difficult. Especially considering how you may think your completely over somebody but then all it takes is a look, a hug, a "hi", or even a picture that can completely send you right back to where you started. I personally think that it's impossible to be 100% over a person. It just isn't going to happen, because a peice of you will always have feelings for that person. That will probably never go away.
You can't erase feelings. If we could, believe me i would've done that a long time ago. But you just cant. You simply have to accept how you feel, and deal with the circumstances of the situation. Wheather that situation is going in your favor or not. And seeing as how this particular post is about moving on, lets just say that it's not in your favor. Unfortunatly things don't always work out in relationships, and we all know that. Sometimes you might be in the process of trying to be in a relationship, or just might have a serious crush and for whatever reason it just doesn't work out. So now that you have all of these built up emotions, what are you supposed to do, because you cant just make it go away. You can't help but to feel something. Especially hurt. That feeling of complete hurt is when the healing process begins. Now that you've realized that it's over but your somewhat heart broken you can now pick up the peices of your broken heart and begin to put them back together. This is easier said then done. It's gonna take a lot of time, dedication, and persistance to get over it. Sometimes you might feel the urge to hold a grudge and you might even be bitter, but lets be honest, thats not the way to go. DONT LET THE WRONG GUY MESS YOU UP FOR THE RIGHT GUY. That is a very important statement. infact i feel that i shoud say it again: DONT LET THE WRONG GUY MESS YOU UP FOR THE RIGHT GUY. O.k. that's two times. Hopefully you got the memo. Now i'm positive that unless you went off to college, or moved away, that it's going to be near impossible to completely avoid this person. (be it guy, or girl, no judgment.) So the next time you see them are you going to
A.) burst into tears
B.) give him the death stare
C.) randomly spaz, and completely go off on him
D.) play it cool smile, and keep it moving.
Using common sense which one sounds like the best answer? If you said anything other than D. you might want to seriously consider re-evaluating your life. D. is the best answer. Don't let him know that he's gotten under your skin. Trust me, them knowing that they got you is the biggest reward for them. Not only that now that they see what kind of affect they have on you they will continue to toy with your emotions just for the fun of it. Don't give them that power. Don't let them have it. Be the bigger person. At least on the outside. I'm sure that you'll be dying on the inside damn near tears, but on the outside don't let that out.
I know that it's hard. Especially when it's someone who was your first love. You never forget your first love. Although you may try, it's not going to happen. I promise you you'll always remember. And you may ask yourself what was i thinking, but he'll always have a soft spot in your heart.
Moral of the post is, It's hard to get over someone. It really is, but we have to try. And even though we can put everything we have into moving on, it's impossible to forget, and feelings don't just disapear so it's impossible to fully get over someone. But don't worry, your not alone.
Thursday, September 6, 2012
The (REAL)ities of Depression
Depression, we as females know all about that. Getting your heart broken by some boy, then locking yourself away in your room with a pint of your favorite ben and jerry's, your favorite blanket, and a marathon of some t.v. show. We know it as a temporary sadness that last for a few days then we get over it. But for some people it's not temporary. That sadness is long term, and difficult to get over. And it becomes a serious illness if untreated that could potentially lead to suicide. It's very important to recognize the symptoms of clinical depression:
Difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions
Fatigue and decreased energy
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness
Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
Insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
Irritability, restlessness
Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
Overeating or appetite loss
Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" feelings
Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts
Now that you know the symptoms you can now recognize them if they should occur to you. Depression is a very serious matter that shouldn't be taken lightly. I know how easy it is to brush it off and ignore it, or brush it off. But you can not ignore how you feel. It's important for your mental stability. If for any reason you feel depressed because your unhappy in your life or the circumstances in your life and you feel as though you cant overcome your depression you should talk to your doctor. I understand how it feels to be depressed. It truly is a feeling of helplessness. Like no one hears your cries for help, and can help you out of your stupor. It's very hard to cope with alone. And no one should have to. But some people do. And they sometimes don't make it out of their situation. So in order to avoid this situation you should talk to someone. And sometimes parents like to shrug it off and say that nothing is wrong with you. But truly deep within you know that feeling of helplessness wont go away. Get help! It's ok, don't be ashamed about it. Be proud that your doing something about it and trying to get better. Because eventually someone will hear your cry for help. I just hope someone hears mine.
Now that you know the symptoms you can now recognize them if they should occur to you. Depression is a very serious matter that shouldn't be taken lightly. I know how easy it is to brush it off and ignore it, or brush it off. But you can not ignore how you feel. It's important for your mental stability. If for any reason you feel depressed because your unhappy in your life or the circumstances in your life and you feel as though you cant overcome your depression you should talk to your doctor. I understand how it feels to be depressed. It truly is a feeling of helplessness. Like no one hears your cries for help, and can help you out of your stupor. It's very hard to cope with alone. And no one should have to. But some people do. And they sometimes don't make it out of their situation. So in order to avoid this situation you should talk to someone. And sometimes parents like to shrug it off and say that nothing is wrong with you. But truly deep within you know that feeling of helplessness wont go away. Get help! It's ok, don't be ashamed about it. Be proud that your doing something about it and trying to get better. Because eventually someone will hear your cry for help. I just hope someone hears mine.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Alone in the crowd...
It's crazy how surrounded by hundreds and thousands of other people you can manage to feel all alone. Like you have no one, but you're surrounded by people. I know what that's like. I go to a school that's not the largest university, but it's big enough and has plenty of people. But still somehow i feel alone. I've made a couple of friends but i still manage to feel alone. I spend so much time in my jail cell, or rather my dorm room. And it's not the most pleasent place to be with it's white walls, and my unnerving roommate. I have honestly never been so unhappy in my life. I am forever depressed. Choosing to go to a school far away was not the best idea. It's actually the biggest mistake i have ever made in my life. And i fully intend to transfer close to home next year. I wish i could transfer next semester but... My dad refuses to allow me to do such a thing. I feel like I could cry, but i have to constantly remind myself to be a big girl, and grow up. But i don't want to. I don't want to be here. I don't want to grow up. I want to go back home, and be with my parents. As much as my dad got on my last nerve and was forever cursing me out i'd rather be there than here anyday. I'm so alone. And it's beginning to seem desperate. I'm not the best at making friends, and i honestly don't even want to make friends. I want my old friends back, but they all grew up, and made new friends. Lucky them. They all love their schools, and are making friends and having a great time in college. Me on the other hand sit here almost in tears desperately wishing i could turn back the hands of time and go back to highschool. But i can't. I have to move on and grow up because i dont have a choice but to do so. I've made a mess of my life and have no one to blame but myself. who else could i blame? I just pray that it gets better and some glimmer of happines shines down upon me to brighten my gloom. And as for being alone... with these hundreds and thousands of other people, i'd much rather fuck with the squirrels than these people.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
College, Welcome to hell!
College. In high school we were so excited. Even enthusiastic for the time of college. We just knew we were gonna get here and we were gonna party, have a good time, finally be grown, and do what we wanted to do without our parents breathing down our throats. We'll here's a reality check.
COLLEGE IS NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS!!!
You cannot base what you think college is like, or even what you think it should be like based off of what you see on t.v. or in movies. etc... Also a word of advice. Do not choose to attend a college in which you have not thouroughly toured, and done your research on, as well as ask around, and ask people who recently attended their opinion on the school, because i promise you, you will be in the same boat as me. Miserable, Unhappy, and ready to transfer after two weeks. I admit that i made a huge mistake. Choosing a school that i had never visited, thouroughly researched, and none of my friends were attending either. It's always best to attend a school that at least one or two of your friends are attending as well. That way your not completely alone. Its good to meet new people and make friends but at the same time it's good to have someone there who already knows you and you already know them.
Also choose a school that has some GOOD local attractions. Not a school in the middle of no where with nothing to do nor anywhere to go. Because being cooped up in your dorm room is not ideal at all. Or at least in my opinion it's not. So try to be social, go out, make friends, and have a good time, but not too good of a time. But you want to go somewhere where there's something that you'll enjoy doing. So if your a house party type person then a school in the middle of nowhere might be for you because they're going to party, but location says alot. And if you're the type who preferes being on the town and going to clubs then you should probably look for a school in the city.
Also if your the type of person who is always up under your parents and you have seperation anxiety type issues then you definantly shouldn't go to school far away from home. Because i can garuntee that you will be sitting in your room crying for your mommy. So spare yourself and dont do it. And being close to home isn't all bad. Free laundry, free home cooked meals, and you have the privelage of going home when you need to get away from your roommate, Being present for family functions, and you get to see your mommy whenever you feel like it. That's ideal to me, but me and my mother are basically attatched at the hip.
So if you're not ready to be on your own, and do everything for yourself i highly recommend that you consider all of these things before choosing a school. Or else you could end up like me.
I currently am attending Valdosta State University. Academically it's a great school. It has small class sizes and most of the academic buildings are located close together on main campus which is where all freshmen housing is. So it's a short 2-3 minute walk from your room to your class. The campus is beautiful. The spanish style architecture is really nice with palm trees everywhere, it makes you feel like you already on vacation *conviently the school is a hour and a half from panama city beah fl.* Now here's the downfall. It is HOT. Like close to hell HOT! *although in my opinion this is hell.* The food isn't too hot. at all. It looks good, but lacks seasoning and taste. The chick-fil-a here on main campus is a chick-fil-a express, therefore they only have 5 choices. WHAT THE F***!!!! The dinning halls close SUPER early on friday's and saturdays. There's one nice hall for freshman. Georgia hall. any other hall is garbage. Their old and in desperate need of remodeling. Now for the personal down falls. I'm 4 and a half hours away from home. At first it was ideal. I could get as far as i possibly could away from my dad without going out of the state. I was here for about two days and was automatically home sick. I also came down here on a whim that i needed a new start. And came down here solo. all of my friends went to different schools. So not only was i home sick but i was lonely. Also My roommate... I'm sure you've all heard the stories of bad roommates... well... lucky me i got a bad one. And if your curious about the activities of my retarded roommate check my twitter. (@Blueskadooskie) So i miss not being able to go home when i feel like it, being down here in the middle of nowhere and being stranded on campus because i didn't bring a car down here. Then i'm lonely and unhappy with my room and roomate. Therefore due to the intense unahappiness and distraughtness that i feel im transfering. Hopefully next semester... but if my dad has his way i'll be here the whole year. But as they say "I'm grown now" so i can make my own decisions. And i shall. But look into everything i said when choosing a school... and seriously take those things into consideration because your happiness is at stake.
COLLEGE IS NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS!!!
You cannot base what you think college is like, or even what you think it should be like based off of what you see on t.v. or in movies. etc... Also a word of advice. Do not choose to attend a college in which you have not thouroughly toured, and done your research on, as well as ask around, and ask people who recently attended their opinion on the school, because i promise you, you will be in the same boat as me. Miserable, Unhappy, and ready to transfer after two weeks. I admit that i made a huge mistake. Choosing a school that i had never visited, thouroughly researched, and none of my friends were attending either. It's always best to attend a school that at least one or two of your friends are attending as well. That way your not completely alone. Its good to meet new people and make friends but at the same time it's good to have someone there who already knows you and you already know them.
Also choose a school that has some GOOD local attractions. Not a school in the middle of no where with nothing to do nor anywhere to go. Because being cooped up in your dorm room is not ideal at all. Or at least in my opinion it's not. So try to be social, go out, make friends, and have a good time, but not too good of a time. But you want to go somewhere where there's something that you'll enjoy doing. So if your a house party type person then a school in the middle of nowhere might be for you because they're going to party, but location says alot. And if you're the type who preferes being on the town and going to clubs then you should probably look for a school in the city.
Also if your the type of person who is always up under your parents and you have seperation anxiety type issues then you definantly shouldn't go to school far away from home. Because i can garuntee that you will be sitting in your room crying for your mommy. So spare yourself and dont do it. And being close to home isn't all bad. Free laundry, free home cooked meals, and you have the privelage of going home when you need to get away from your roommate, Being present for family functions, and you get to see your mommy whenever you feel like it. That's ideal to me, but me and my mother are basically attatched at the hip.
So if you're not ready to be on your own, and do everything for yourself i highly recommend that you consider all of these things before choosing a school. Or else you could end up like me.
I currently am attending Valdosta State University. Academically it's a great school. It has small class sizes and most of the academic buildings are located close together on main campus which is where all freshmen housing is. So it's a short 2-3 minute walk from your room to your class. The campus is beautiful. The spanish style architecture is really nice with palm trees everywhere, it makes you feel like you already on vacation *conviently the school is a hour and a half from panama city beah fl.* Now here's the downfall. It is HOT. Like close to hell HOT! *although in my opinion this is hell.* The food isn't too hot. at all. It looks good, but lacks seasoning and taste. The chick-fil-a here on main campus is a chick-fil-a express, therefore they only have 5 choices. WHAT THE F***!!!! The dinning halls close SUPER early on friday's and saturdays. There's one nice hall for freshman. Georgia hall. any other hall is garbage. Their old and in desperate need of remodeling. Now for the personal down falls. I'm 4 and a half hours away from home. At first it was ideal. I could get as far as i possibly could away from my dad without going out of the state. I was here for about two days and was automatically home sick. I also came down here on a whim that i needed a new start. And came down here solo. all of my friends went to different schools. So not only was i home sick but i was lonely. Also My roommate... I'm sure you've all heard the stories of bad roommates... well... lucky me i got a bad one. And if your curious about the activities of my retarded roommate check my twitter. (@Blueskadooskie) So i miss not being able to go home when i feel like it, being down here in the middle of nowhere and being stranded on campus because i didn't bring a car down here. Then i'm lonely and unhappy with my room and roomate. Therefore due to the intense unahappiness and distraughtness that i feel im transfering. Hopefully next semester... but if my dad has his way i'll be here the whole year. But as they say "I'm grown now" so i can make my own decisions. And i shall. But look into everything i said when choosing a school... and seriously take those things into consideration because your happiness is at stake.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
60 songs, for every second.
Once again i have devised a list. But this one consist 60 of the greatest songs *at this moment in time.* I love music so much that i could devise another list of songs in 10 minuets. But for the time being were going to roll with this list. Some of the songs are old, some are new. But if there's a song you've never heard your best bet would be to you-tube it because you are missing out!!!! Now keep in mind this may not be your 60 favorite songs. A lot of you aren't going to agree with every song on this list, and may be upset that certain songs aren't on this list. But as i said this is the top 60 at this moment. And i also limited myself to one song per artist otherwise this list would consist of 40 Michael Jackson, and 20 random songs. But without further a due...
1.Ghost Town D.J's- My boo
2.Brandy ft. Kanye West- talk about our love
3. Pete Rock, CL Smooth- T.R.O.Y;They reminisce over you
4.Digable Planets- Cool like that
5.Kanye West- Through the wire
6.Maria Carey- Honey
7.Estelle- American Boy
8.Michael Jackson- Rock with you
9.Jackson 5- Wanna be where you are
10.Missy Elliot- Stand the rain (supa dupa fly)
11.Mary J. Blige- Real Love
12.Outkast- Roses
13.Destiny's Child ft. Wyclef- No, No, No pt.2
14.Snoop Dogg ft. Pharrel- Beautiful
15.Shaggy- It wasn't me
16.Black Eyed Peas- My humps
17.Plain White T's- Hey there delilah
18.Amy Winehouse- Tears dry on their own
19.Wale- Lotus Flower Bomb
20.Donna Summer- On the radio
21.Earth Wind and fire- Boogie Wonerland
22.Taste of Honey- Boogie, oogie, oogie
23.Shalamar- A night to remember
24.Carl Carlton- Bad mamma jama
25.Evelyn Champagne- Love come down
26.Anita Baker- sweet love
27.Beyonce- me, myself and i
28.Guy- I like
29.B2K- girlfriend
30.TLC- Baby, Baby, Baby
31.Bow Wow- out of my system
32.Al Green- Love and happiness
33.The Spinners- i'll be around
34.Wyclef-911
35.The fugees- killing me softly
36.Lauryn Hill- The sweetest thing
37.A Tribe called quest- Bonita Applebum
38.T-Pain ft. Kanye West- Thereapy
39.Jay-z- Lost one
40.Common ft. Mary J. Blige- Come close
41.Jill Scott- He loves me
42.Robin Thicke- Wanna love you
43.Pharrel- Frontin
44.N.E.R.D- Everyone nose
45.Erykah Badu- Tyrone
46.Kid Cudi- Make her say
47.Amerie- 1 thing
48.Jazmine Sulivan- I need you
49.Aaliyah- I care for you
50.Etta James- At last
51.Drake- Show me a good time
52.Bob Marley ft. Lauryn Hill- Turn your lights down low
53.Odd Future- Analog
54.Musiq Soulchild- Love
55.Elle Varner- Only wanna give it to you
56.Chris Brown- Kiss Kiss
57.Ciara- 1,2, step
58.Solange- F' the industry
59.John Legend- Ordinary people
60.PM Dawn- Set adrift on memory bliss
1.Ghost Town D.J's- My boo
2.Brandy ft. Kanye West- talk about our love
3. Pete Rock, CL Smooth- T.R.O.Y;They reminisce over you
4.Digable Planets- Cool like that
5.Kanye West- Through the wire
6.Maria Carey- Honey
7.Estelle- American Boy
8.Michael Jackson- Rock with you
9.Jackson 5- Wanna be where you are
10.Missy Elliot- Stand the rain (supa dupa fly)
11.Mary J. Blige- Real Love
12.Outkast- Roses
13.Destiny's Child ft. Wyclef- No, No, No pt.2
14.Snoop Dogg ft. Pharrel- Beautiful
15.Shaggy- It wasn't me
16.Black Eyed Peas- My humps
17.Plain White T's- Hey there delilah
18.Amy Winehouse- Tears dry on their own
19.Wale- Lotus Flower Bomb
20.Donna Summer- On the radio
21.Earth Wind and fire- Boogie Wonerland
22.Taste of Honey- Boogie, oogie, oogie
23.Shalamar- A night to remember
24.Carl Carlton- Bad mamma jama
25.Evelyn Champagne- Love come down
26.Anita Baker- sweet love
27.Beyonce- me, myself and i
28.Guy- I like
29.B2K- girlfriend
30.TLC- Baby, Baby, Baby
31.Bow Wow- out of my system
32.Al Green- Love and happiness
33.The Spinners- i'll be around
34.Wyclef-911
35.The fugees- killing me softly
36.Lauryn Hill- The sweetest thing
37.A Tribe called quest- Bonita Applebum
38.T-Pain ft. Kanye West- Thereapy
39.Jay-z- Lost one
40.Common ft. Mary J. Blige- Come close
41.Jill Scott- He loves me
42.Robin Thicke- Wanna love you
43.Pharrel- Frontin
44.N.E.R.D- Everyone nose
45.Erykah Badu- Tyrone
46.Kid Cudi- Make her say
47.Amerie- 1 thing
48.Jazmine Sulivan- I need you
49.Aaliyah- I care for you
50.Etta James- At last
51.Drake- Show me a good time
52.Bob Marley ft. Lauryn Hill- Turn your lights down low
53.Odd Future- Analog
54.Musiq Soulchild- Love
55.Elle Varner- Only wanna give it to you
56.Chris Brown- Kiss Kiss
57.Ciara- 1,2, step
58.Solange- F' the industry
59.John Legend- Ordinary people
60.PM Dawn- Set adrift on memory bliss
Things i've learned...
Feeling inspired I've devised a list of things from the experiences that I've learned in high school.Think of this as my Survival guide... For Rockdale at least.
1. In Literature spark notes is your best friend.
2. You should join a teams, or clubs.
3. It's not cheating it's comparing answers.
4. There's a difference between skipping and taking a mental health day.
5. Senior pranks can become felonies.
6. Evacuate the building if you smell gas... Of any kind.
7. Ripped Jeans= the stupidest dress code violation
8. Pinedale Bus= Worst bus at RCHS
9. It's not cool to ride the bus Senior year.
10. Go to lots of sports events. (games)
11. Take pictures of everything.
12. Keep all your valuables on your person at ALL times.
13. Keep your book bag in eye sight, or it will get "flipped"
14. Teachers are just like students. They like our music, partying, drinking, and getting tattoo's.
15. Never skip out on group outings
16. Go to your homecoming dance!!!!
17. If you don't like something, change it.
18. Guys are assholes.
19. Ben & Jerry's is the cure to heal any broken heart.
20. It's good to let it out and vent.
21. Never involve your friends in your relationships.
22. Facebook relationships DO NOT WORK!
23. IF you don't want for everyone to know your business, don't post it on facebook or twitter.
24. Don't come to class high.
25. Don't take a foreign exchange teachers class.
26. If you want to keep your phone, then you probably shouldn't text in class.
27. Put your phone on vibrate in class!
28. Eat before all standardized test.
29. Get to know your counselor. It'll come in handy.
30. High school is going to be some of the best years of your life so enjoy it.
1. In Literature spark notes is your best friend.
2. You should join a teams, or clubs.
3. It's not cheating it's comparing answers.
4. There's a difference between skipping and taking a mental health day.
5. Senior pranks can become felonies.
6. Evacuate the building if you smell gas... Of any kind.
7. Ripped Jeans= the stupidest dress code violation
8. Pinedale Bus= Worst bus at RCHS
9. It's not cool to ride the bus Senior year.
10. Go to lots of sports events. (games)
11. Take pictures of everything.
12. Keep all your valuables on your person at ALL times.
13. Keep your book bag in eye sight, or it will get "flipped"
14. Teachers are just like students. They like our music, partying, drinking, and getting tattoo's.
15. Never skip out on group outings
16. Go to your homecoming dance!!!!
17. If you don't like something, change it.
18. Guys are assholes.
19. Ben & Jerry's is the cure to heal any broken heart.
20. It's good to let it out and vent.
21. Never involve your friends in your relationships.
22. Facebook relationships DO NOT WORK!
23. IF you don't want for everyone to know your business, don't post it on facebook or twitter.
24. Don't come to class high.
25. Don't take a foreign exchange teachers class.
26. If you want to keep your phone, then you probably shouldn't text in class.
27. Put your phone on vibrate in class!
28. Eat before all standardized test.
29. Get to know your counselor. It'll come in handy.
30. High school is going to be some of the best years of your life so enjoy it.
Should've listened to your momma...
How many times did your momma warn you? How many times did your momma tell you? But how many times did you listen to your momma? I bet you wish you had listened now huh?
When your mom warned you that there were "lil fast girls" out there, and to stay away from them did you? nope.
Why? Because you're hard headed. You ran after those same lil fast girls that had no good intentions of any kind. Your mom always told you to find a pretty, smart girl, that would make you happy, and be a good wife, and mother to your children. That's not good enough for you all tho. You want the girl that's a hood rat, tatted up, trouble maker, caught up in drama, weaved up, drinking and smoking, and also a super freak. Yeah, that sounds like the perfect girl doesn't it?
WRONG<
That is not the one, because this same girl is not going to help you reach your full potential, because she's not reaching her own potential. There are so many girls out there that are pretty, smart, educated, responsible, and as well as a freak in the bed. Although there are few of them there is a perfect medium. Girls that are everything your mom wanted for you to have and everything you want to have.
I want to know what it is that these girls got going that is so appealing. Other than sex, what can she offer you? Or is that enough for you? Someone that can please you physically but can't offer you anything else? What about that sounds good? You need more than sex. You're going to want someone to talk to, someone that can cook, and clean, someone that doesn't depend on you for every little thing, has her own money, smart, someone you can take out in public and be proud of her because you know she's a classy lady with good taste, someone you can bring home to your mom and she'll love her. That's who you want. That's who you need! Your mother warned you so maybe, just maybe you should listen.
When your mom warned you that there were "lil fast girls" out there, and to stay away from them did you? nope.
Why? Because you're hard headed. You ran after those same lil fast girls that had no good intentions of any kind. Your mom always told you to find a pretty, smart girl, that would make you happy, and be a good wife, and mother to your children. That's not good enough for you all tho. You want the girl that's a hood rat, tatted up, trouble maker, caught up in drama, weaved up, drinking and smoking, and also a super freak. Yeah, that sounds like the perfect girl doesn't it?
WRONG<
That is not the one, because this same girl is not going to help you reach your full potential, because she's not reaching her own potential. There are so many girls out there that are pretty, smart, educated, responsible, and as well as a freak in the bed. Although there are few of them there is a perfect medium. Girls that are everything your mom wanted for you to have and everything you want to have.
I want to know what it is that these girls got going that is so appealing. Other than sex, what can she offer you? Or is that enough for you? Someone that can please you physically but can't offer you anything else? What about that sounds good? You need more than sex. You're going to want someone to talk to, someone that can cook, and clean, someone that doesn't depend on you for every little thing, has her own money, smart, someone you can take out in public and be proud of her because you know she's a classy lady with good taste, someone you can bring home to your mom and she'll love her. That's who you want. That's who you need! Your mother warned you so maybe, just maybe you should listen.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
FWB: Friends with benefits *the REAL deal*
Lets be real. It's the summer. Everybody is trying to find somebody to kick it with to get in those last summer memories. Lets be honest we all are. But nobody is trying to catch feelings because at the end of the summer there is no high school to return too. There's college. Or not college. whichever way life decides to take us. Soooo whats the alternative? Friends with benefits. Yes, that sounds like a brilliant idea... until it becomes your reality and that reality gets too real...
Friends with benefits entails that you and a somewhat significant other, receive the benefits of being in a relationship without being in a relationship. In general this is done so that no one catches feelings and no one gets tied down. It's like having soneone so that you can make-out, kiss, or you kjnow whatever without actually being in a committed relationship. This probably sounds like the perfect and the most ideal situation but in reality... It generally doesn't end well. Because what usually happens is you begin getting attatched, and start catching feelings even though you both mutually agreed to not catch feelings. 9 times out of 10 it's the female that catches feelings. Then when the male in the situation doesn't return those same feelings guess who just got their feelings hurt? yeah. This is why this never works. Friends with benefits is basically like the set up. You either getting set up to be in a relationship or your getting set up to be broken down. One or the other. And that's the reality of the situation. I feel no need to feed you bull shit and lies about the situation. I would like to believe that somewhere out there this has actually worked for someone. That they have come out of this with no hurt feelings and no regrets and resentment towards each other. I would Love to believe that. But i just dont. And if someone says that they have i believe they're lying. The end. And this completes my lets be real.
Friends with benefits entails that you and a somewhat significant other, receive the benefits of being in a relationship without being in a relationship. In general this is done so that no one catches feelings and no one gets tied down. It's like having soneone so that you can make-out, kiss, or you kjnow whatever without actually being in a committed relationship. This probably sounds like the perfect and the most ideal situation but in reality... It generally doesn't end well. Because what usually happens is you begin getting attatched, and start catching feelings even though you both mutually agreed to not catch feelings. 9 times out of 10 it's the female that catches feelings. Then when the male in the situation doesn't return those same feelings guess who just got their feelings hurt? yeah. This is why this never works. Friends with benefits is basically like the set up. You either getting set up to be in a relationship or your getting set up to be broken down. One or the other. And that's the reality of the situation. I feel no need to feed you bull shit and lies about the situation. I would like to believe that somewhere out there this has actually worked for someone. That they have come out of this with no hurt feelings and no regrets and resentment towards each other. I would Love to believe that. But i just dont. And if someone says that they have i believe they're lying. The end. And this completes my lets be real.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
#neglected
Sooo due to the craziness of my schedule with end of the year activities, i had somewhat neglected my blog. But now I'M BACK! and i'm ready! so follow along and check in for new blogs. Also Updated the Playlist... Check it out.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda...
Shoulda, coulda, woulda... Three words full of nothing but regret. How many times has a scenario occured where there was something you didn't do and wish that you had done? How many times? The regret and remorse you feel afterwards is something serious. I know from experience. They say that in life we regret the things we never did more than the things we did. No one should live life with these regrets. Life should be amazing, but we all know that it doesn't happen that way. Life has it's ups, and it's downs. We have those moments that happen and those are the moments we live for. But then there are those moments that are so catastrophic that we wish we'd die. And even contemplate suicide. Now rather than me being your guiding light out of the tunnel, i'm more in need of my own guiding light. Sometimes you have to learn to accept things for what they are. You have to learn to take what's happened and make the best of it. If that means to create another moment and take another chance then do it. If there's no hope for you and that's your last moment then just accept it, look on the bright side of it, and learn from it. That way the next time a similar situation rolls around you know what to do. Everything that happens in life somewhat happens for a reason. Or at least i believe so. And like i've said you just have to learn from it. Even if it is one of the worst things that happens to you. O.k. so getting off topic here...
Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda. Eliminate that. Next time you think it's the perfect moment to take a chance, but your feeling to afraid to do it, Do it anyways. Because if you don't you will forever wish you had. And sometimes that bravery, and boldness that you have about yourself is appealing/attractive to guys. SOMETIMES. This doesn't mean the next time you and whoever are alone you take that chance and kiss him. Well... Naaaah. Go ahead and go for it. Just be ready for what may happen afterwards because the outcome you may be hoping for may not be the outcome you get. Just saying.
"The biggest mistake that you could make, is the chance that you don't take."
Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda. Eliminate that. Next time you think it's the perfect moment to take a chance, but your feeling to afraid to do it, Do it anyways. Because if you don't you will forever wish you had. And sometimes that bravery, and boldness that you have about yourself is appealing/attractive to guys. SOMETIMES. This doesn't mean the next time you and whoever are alone you take that chance and kiss him. Well... Naaaah. Go ahead and go for it. Just be ready for what may happen afterwards because the outcome you may be hoping for may not be the outcome you get. Just saying.
"The biggest mistake that you could make, is the chance that you don't take."
Thursday, April 19, 2012
"Prom-mance"
Prom-mance. A term that i came up with by combining the words prom and romance together. Pro-mance is also similar to "infatuation." Except this infatuation occurs during the prom season, and has a lot to do with said event. Prom-mance is that feeling of strong like towards someone (your prom date) because the two of you have been spending a lot of time together in preparation for prom. It also occurs because of the stereotypical idea of how prom is supposed to work. Ideally you go to prom with your boyfriend/girlfriend or that guy you've been crushing on since forever, and you guys slow dance, and take lots of pictures, then at the end of the night if your down the guy gets lucky. That's how prom is "supposed" to work. And because of the way it's supposed to work people get caught up in the idea that they like "like" their date. When in actuality they really don't. That's that prom-mance kicking into high gear. Then as soon as prom is over... You get DROPPED! like a dead fly. Yeah, kicked to the curve. Big time. But be ware. {I myself actually believe that I have somewhat fallen victim to Prom-mance} And I have a friend that thanks to prom, her and her now boyfriend began dating because he asked her to prom. They started out as prom dates, then the next thing everyone knows is they're a couple. How did that happen? Prom-mance. I just hope that after Prom is over they don't break up... That'd be tragic. Now that Prom-mance has been exposed you can catch yourself before your too deep in. We all want that amazing night like....
But even though we want that amazing night that we'll never forget... The night where you weren't afraid to do anything, Nothing was impossible, and what might've sounded crazy, sounded sane. The kind of night that you see in movies, and in pictures where they're doing crazy things, and smiling and laughing living life. Especially for Seniors. This seems like your clock is ticking quickly, and that alarm is about to go off and your really trying to live it up before it's too late. you've gotta be smart about it. Think about it. This is one time that i will actually give permission to over think something. This time you actually need to think about EVERYTHING and then some, Because you don't wanna make permanent decisions on temporary feelings. Especially when the outcome could change your life. So think about it.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Murphy's Law
I am a strong believer in Murphy's Law. For those of you who don't know let me inform you on what this is. Murphy's law is basically the statement that "Anything that can go wrong, Will go wrong." And i personally believe this 100%. Only because I know this to be true. Soooo many times have i thought of all the bad things that could happen and sure enough they all did. The point behind Murphy's law is to plan for the unexpected, and have multiple back up plans. When you don't plan for things to go wrong then your stuck when they do go wrong. Moral of the story is have a back up plan. Plan ahead. Consider your options, and beware of the unexpected. The end.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Females for dummies: the thought process begins
During class today while venturing down the winding roads of my mind I for whatever reason wondered if there was a "Relationships for dummies" book. I'm sure you've seen the "for dummies brand of books in a books store or something of that nature. There's a "For dummies" for almost everything. There's relationships, sex, math, geometry, algebra, literature, Shakespeare, construction, football, basketball... Like i said almost everything. But i googled it and come to find out that there actually is a Relationship for dummies book. *Which i will be ordering from Amazon a.s.a.p.* But what guy is honestly going to read "Relationships for dummies?" Better question. What guy is actually going to read a book? Getting a guy to read anything is nearly damn impossible. Especially something with the word "relationship" in it. To them that just says "THIS BOOK IS ABOUT EVERYTHING I ALREADY KNOW." Because guys think that they know everything about females and relationships. But actually the Relationships for dummies is targeted at females... not males. That to me seems a tad bit unfair. There needs to be a book for guys to learn about females. How we work. How we operate. A book about things that they do, and how it affects us. A book about our interpretation of the world and our expectations. So that guys may have a better understanding of us. I mean all they do is complain about how they don't get females, and how crazy we are... well I think it's time that i stepped in. Somebody needs too. Don't you think? I'm considering doing this in two ways:
1. A series of blogs
2. A series of YouTube videos that would be posted to my YouTube channel: Blueskadooskie (currently i have no videos uploaded. So hold off on that.)
Honestly I may do both. And i don't think it should be just my opinion. It should be me interviewing other people and asking them their opinion as well. I think this little project is gonna be good. It could potentially be a success. With the help of some people it could be good. But we'll have to wait and see. In the mean time I'm excited about it so, let it begin!
1. A series of blogs
2. A series of YouTube videos that would be posted to my YouTube channel: Blueskadooskie (currently i have no videos uploaded. So hold off on that.)
Honestly I may do both. And i don't think it should be just my opinion. It should be me interviewing other people and asking them their opinion as well. I think this little project is gonna be good. It could potentially be a success. With the help of some people it could be good. But we'll have to wait and see. In the mean time I'm excited about it so, let it begin!
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Just when you gave up all hope...
So many times after a relationship we fall into this funk where it seems as though no one can save us from ourselves. Were depressed, miserable, and eat our feelings away. I know. I've been there. But at some point we have to save ourselves from us. Were only hurting ourselves worse. At some point we have to learn to move on, and live with the hand we've been dealt. It's up to us what we make of the situation. Some of us make the best of it, and some of us make the worst. Honestly some easy ways to get over it is to
- Go out with your girls. Get all sexy, and go out. Not to get back at your ex, but to have a good time without them, and forget about them.
- Don't be a hermit and shut yourself off from the rest of the world. Stay busy.
- Have a Pity party with your best girl and have movies and ice cream. Let it all out. Cry, rant, whatever you feel you need to do.
- Eventually when you feel your up to it, do some shame less flirting. Sure enough at some point you'll start feeling like no guy out there would want you, but actually you still got it.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Fun: We are YOUNG!
"Tonight we are young, so lets set the world on fire, and we can burn brighter than the sun!" The lyrics are awesome! This song is on every freakin commercial! It's literally everywhere! SO here's the video. *btw i had no clue Janelle Monae' was in this song? Even though it's like all of 30 Seconds...*
P.E.T.R.
Time for another P.E.T.R. a.k.a. please excuse the rant. What could i possibly be ranting about now? we'll let me tell you. I Positively hate alot of things. And alot of these things just so happened to piss me off all at once. So let me throw it at y'all.
1. I hate people who feel inferior to you. Usually it's the exact opposite. It's usually I hate people who think they're better than me, but this time it's i hate people who think that I think that i'm better than them. Lets squash this right now. I dont think that I am better than anyone. Honestly yes, i may be better looking than a few, but other than that, that's it. I dont think i'm better than anyone. I'm not i'm not smarter, prettier, thinner, sexier, richer, nor talented-er that anyone. So I dont understand why anyone would give me the stank face when i've done nothing.
2. I hate people that want to judge you because of who you may like. If you like someone that may not be the most attractive or most popular are you just supposed to ignore your feelings because of what other people think? No! If you like them it doesn't matter what anybody else thinks. Infact, Fuck what everybody else thinks and do you boo. Go for it.
3. I hate high school. Especially ratchet highschools that don't believe in buying toilet paper and soap for students. then wonder why there's random std outbreaks. *staleface* C'mon now. How hard is it to purchase soap, paper towels, and toilet paper? and if we should just so happen to have some how hard is it for the janitors to put it in the bathrooms? I mean what else is it they're doing all day since they're clearly not doing their job.
4. I hate prom. I hate everything about it. I was excited about it, but now i'm just over it. x10. This whole having a date, and dress, and hair, nails, transportation, after plans etc, etc, etc, blah, blah, blah, bull shit. Sick. Whenever the word prom comes up i'm just like *VOMIT'S EVERYWHERE!* sick of it.
But thanks for your time. lol.
1. I hate people who feel inferior to you. Usually it's the exact opposite. It's usually I hate people who think they're better than me, but this time it's i hate people who think that I think that i'm better than them. Lets squash this right now. I dont think that I am better than anyone. Honestly yes, i may be better looking than a few, but other than that, that's it. I dont think i'm better than anyone. I'm not i'm not smarter, prettier, thinner, sexier, richer, nor talented-er that anyone. So I dont understand why anyone would give me the stank face when i've done nothing.
2. I hate people that want to judge you because of who you may like. If you like someone that may not be the most attractive or most popular are you just supposed to ignore your feelings because of what other people think? No! If you like them it doesn't matter what anybody else thinks. Infact, Fuck what everybody else thinks and do you boo. Go for it.
3. I hate high school. Especially ratchet highschools that don't believe in buying toilet paper and soap for students. then wonder why there's random std outbreaks. *staleface* C'mon now. How hard is it to purchase soap, paper towels, and toilet paper? and if we should just so happen to have some how hard is it for the janitors to put it in the bathrooms? I mean what else is it they're doing all day since they're clearly not doing their job.
4. I hate prom. I hate everything about it. I was excited about it, but now i'm just over it. x10. This whole having a date, and dress, and hair, nails, transportation, after plans etc, etc, etc, blah, blah, blah, bull shit. Sick. Whenever the word prom comes up i'm just like *VOMIT'S EVERYWHERE!* sick of it.
But thanks for your time. lol.
Friday, March 23, 2012
We LOVE: Spoken Reasons!
Yes! Yes we do! if you have never seen this guy's youtube channel then you are missing out! Because this guy is hilarious!!!! Check him out!
Imperfect Timing
There's a famous quote that says "There is a time and a place for everything." This has never been more true. In our lives we have so much going on that certain events occur at the worst times. For instance your grieving a family member, and then your phone gets stolen. Imperfect timing. It's as if bad things just continue to happen back, to back, to back. Or there's the imperfect timing when all of your friends are going out, but your grounded or have a boat load of homework. Imperfect timing. Or your Imperfect timing could be that someone special comes into your life, at a bad time. Now that's imperfect timing. For instance, Your mom has a baby, but your going to college in two months. Imperfect Timing. Or, You just broke up with your ex, a few weeks ago and some other guy comes around but unfortunantly your not ready for a relationship at the time. Which is understandable because you need to have yourself together in order to be with someone else. And you cant do that if your still fawning over your ex. But at some point you do need to move on and not hold onto that... Because if you do, you'll never move on. Which is unfair to that poor guy that likes you. Especially when this new guy is already better than your ex. 
But you cant control when things happen. Sometimes you just have to accept it and keep it moving. There's also another quote that i heard once it said that life is 25% of what happens to you and 75% of how you react to it. Which is true. Things happen and we spend the rest of our time dealing with these things. That boys and girls is called Cause and effect. Reacting to what happens. And as inelligent beings we have the option of choosing how we react to things. We can make it out to be, good, bad, or tragic. That's all up to us. How we react to a situation also in return has it's own cause and effect. For example the whole you just broke up, and you meet a new guy shortly after situation. After you meet this guy you have to react to it and choose what will happen next. Your main options are to A.) be nice, and keep it casual, just being friends. B.)Take it to the next level and begin "talking" to him because you like the attention, and dont want to be alone, or C.) Completely shut him down and cut off communication because your not ready to even be social with another male right now. Reasonably option A sounds the best to me. It just seems decent. But The point is that you can choose how it goes and what happens. It's all about how you react to the situation, despite the Imperfect timing.
But you cant control when things happen. Sometimes you just have to accept it and keep it moving. There's also another quote that i heard once it said that life is 25% of what happens to you and 75% of how you react to it. Which is true. Things happen and we spend the rest of our time dealing with these things. That boys and girls is called Cause and effect. Reacting to what happens. And as inelligent beings we have the option of choosing how we react to things. We can make it out to be, good, bad, or tragic. That's all up to us. How we react to a situation also in return has it's own cause and effect. For example the whole you just broke up, and you meet a new guy shortly after situation. After you meet this guy you have to react to it and choose what will happen next. Your main options are to A.) be nice, and keep it casual, just being friends. B.)Take it to the next level and begin "talking" to him because you like the attention, and dont want to be alone, or C.) Completely shut him down and cut off communication because your not ready to even be social with another male right now. Reasonably option A sounds the best to me. It just seems decent. But The point is that you can choose how it goes and what happens. It's all about how you react to the situation, despite the Imperfect timing. Wednesday, March 21, 2012
The Heir to the "Throne"
Yes, it's a little late but The toKing and Queen have finally produced an heir. Beyonce And rapper Jay-Z finally gave birth to baby "Blue Ivy Carter" a.k.a. BIC. This much disputed pregnancy was a news phenomenon. Their was even dispute and controversy as of to if Beyonce was even pregnant. Many people claimed that she was faking her pregnancy, and secretly hired a serogate mother. Either way the baby now belongs to Beyonce, she's the mother and Jay-z is the father. Point blank. And with two of the most powerful parents baby BIC sits higher than any other baby out there. She's also the cutest celebrity baby thats been born in a while i might add...
Isn't she precious? Although her name is a bit... odd... stupid... strange. I'm sure it'll eventually grown on her. But she's one lucky baby right? Shoot. I wish my name was Blue Ivy and I had it made like that... But unfortunantly i'm not. I'm sure america is gonna love watching her grow, and mobbing the poor childs privacy... but here are more pics of baby BIC... and if you ask me it's so strange how as a infant she literally looks identical to Beyonce. You can see it with the shape of her eyes, nose and mouth. It's as if Jay-z had nothing to do with the process.
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